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Just Have To Re-blog About This!

2012-02-09T09:47:00.004+08:00

That's my niece, Kaela Iman and that's my best friend, Nani. Sampai best friend Mak Titi pun Iman nak kebas ye???? Love u both so much x

Sho cuteeeeee x

Running Around Lookin For A Place!

2012-02-05T12:12:00.007+08:00

That's exactly what we did starting from early 2012 til now. We were busy looking for potentials places that can be used for our bertandang ceremony. But till today, no place has been booked yet. Maybe he'll just have the ceremony at his home. Senang cerita! ;p

We've been up there and we've been down. From Janda Baik, to a few gardens in the city. Fiance's dream was to have the bertandang ceremony at Lake Garden. Ehem. The place where he proposed me. Yeah, he proposed me to be his wife there. He did go check out the DBKL office, whether the place is available for rent. But unfortunately, the garden was under renovation. And they will only open the garden for rents late this year. Which is quite risky for us. So, no Lake Garden for us. Boo :(

Then, his family suggested to have the ceremony at Janda Baik. Lots of nice beautiful resorts up there. So, off we went to check JB. Here is one of the resort i really LOVE but I forgot what's the name of the place. Huhu.

where the canopies should be :)

private pool for family who stay at the resort after reception (ceh, dah berangan dah!)

nice right?

they even have a tower at the resort. that's the karaoke place.

nice spot for pre/post wedding photo shoot!

i knowww. so nice the place. but when we think about it again, it's so far from the city plus the jalan quite berbelit, so people might end up not going to the reception after all. but i would really consider this place for a weekend getaway one day!

Then, fiance and his bestie..hehe, went to check out some other gardens available in the city like Taman Batu Metropolitan, Kiara Park, and etc. The gardens are nice though but we were quite reluctant because of its locations la, parking spot la yadi yadi yadaaa. So, conclusion is place for reception for bertandang is not yet settled. Insya Allah, i'm positive we'll find a place soon.

I've settled my nikah and reception's place so i need only to settle the details. Good news is, we've hired our official photographers and videographer for all 3 events is nikah, my reception and his. yeayersss! Lega a bit.

Next weekend, is our kursus kahwin. Cannot wait to go! I need to clarify certain issues relating to marriages during the kursus, insyaAllah. Been having certain questions in mind. So hopefully, i'll find the answers there. Best part is that, I'm going there with my cousin who's getting married this June. Yeayerss! No sleepy head in class i guess :p

On another note, I find my future mil advice to be really useful. As a mother, of course she knows his son inside out. Her advice is that since both of us are engaged and old people say that the engagement period is the most difficult, that's where the relationship is to be tested. In the end, it's whether you'll succeed the test ie. got married or you fail ie. putus tunang. always be patient. always. that's what she said to me.

Whenever i have difficult moments with my fiance, i will always remember her words. And then, I'll find myself a lot calmer hence, I can deal with the issue reasonably. No longer shouting, no harsh words, no merajuk for long time. Hahah, u name it! so yeah. thank you aunty for the advice! x

that's about that. till then, lovees...doing laundry. yikes!

Review on my engagement

2012-01-14T22:41:00.009+08:00

As promised, i will do a review of my engagement. first thing first.

1. make up.

i discovered my make up artist for that day from facebook actually. i accidentally saw her page through my brother in law's fb. fyi, my BIL is also a photog. hehe. apprently, kak fyda was one of his many clients. so i engaged her after i took a look at her portfolio. nice work and very AFFORDABLE and reasonable price. she used MAC to do my make up for engagement. timing ok, and she herself made me at ease. buat i tak nervous and when my other relatives kerumun and some even asked "why you did her hair like this? y u never do it that way?" she was calmed and just said, "oh i think it's better this way." sangat lah baik and sopan :) i was actually kinda nervous since i never went for make up trial with her. so basically i was like taking the risk too. in case her work didn't turn out they way i wanted it to be. but Alhamdulilah, it was ABSOLUTELY beyond my imagination. i have never dream of being all dolled up like that. tak percaya? tengok ni. i took this pic from her fb actually. hehe :)

paling memuaskan hati! i straight away booked her for my nikah, my reception and fiance's reception. senang. plus, she's a lady. so takdelah nak batal wudu' i nnt during the events.

2. my engagement dress.

i chose yellow because tak ramai guna yellow. and i kinda like the calming effect that a yellow could have on me. soothing. the yellow that i chose was like kuning air in bahasa malaysia. i bought the material which is chiffon silk from jakel. i sent my kain to qudyn. because i like his fresh ideas on his design plus, my good friend zaza, sent all her wedding outfits to him. so senang nak work with. the best thing about qudyn is that, he can work within my budget. but maybe because ada connection kot :) hehe. this is a full picture of the dress. i like simple designs. tak kelam kabut or even terlalu gah. sweet and simple would do for engagement.

1 more thing, qudyn's cutting boleh buat i nmpk kurus :p haha.

3. my mini dais.

i had my cousin's wedding planner to do the mini dais for me. i hate cushions because i dont like to duduk bersimpuh. so i requested for a chair for me to sit on the dais. even mom agreed with the chair. here's the pic.

that's me and fiance. again, price was absolutely REASONABLE. the wedding planner's shop is in KLANG. mom also requested me to ask the wedding planner to do my nikah dais later. her shop's name is azieka's collection. she also has fb page, so u can find her in fb :)

4. my hantaran.

my super sweet and simple hantaran was done by my colleague. it was within my tight budget. huhu. but i kinda like the simplicity though. just nice for my eyes :)

so, i guess that's about that. awesome food was catered by ma and pa. i malas nak story pasal khemah sebab menyakitkan hati. totally unsatisfactory. hmmph. so, i guess that's about that. mata dah mengantuk ni. had a long day today. hehe.

till then, toodles.

lovees..ZZZZzzzzzZZZ....

welcome 2012!

2012-01-12T09:30:00.002+08:00

yeay! it's not too late to welcome 2012 now right. hehe. so what did u guys do on new year's eve? i was in pavvy celebrating with my fiance and his friends. didn't really celebrate,celebrate get it? just hung out at coffee bean and played some games. since coffee bean was closing after 12am we moved to lepak somewhere else. and i ended up going home at 2.30am in the morning (despite my 12am curfew) thank god my parents tak bising i came back late. phewww!!

anyways, let's talk about the wedding. so what basically have i done for the wedding? (oh i've just remembered i haven't posted about my engagement review). sorry, that will come soon ok! so back to my wedding prep....i've done nothing. nada. zilch. zero. EXCEPT. booking the reception hall. that's it.

i've been tied up with work and my part time job. when i'm not busy with work, i'm busy preparing lecture notes for my lectures. so, that kinda consumes my time nowadays. penat, memang penat. but it's been fun all along and to tell you the truth, i kinda enjoy giving lectures. Alhamdulilah that i've been given the opportunity to teach and to get some extra income as well (as part of my wedding prep). :)

i've decided the concept for my side's reception and his side already. now all is left to do is to go through the details according to the theme and concept. and to start looking for kursus kahwin and to kick start the procedures for nikah and what nots. (which i seriously have no idea what the procedure is like. huhu)

so, that's about my wedding prep. nothing much kan? i knowwww.

but the most exciting part about the wedding (for me lah) is getting the hantaran gifts! hihihi. mcm dpt birthday presents. only it's more than 1! yippieeee!

ok,ok gotta go. till next time. for my engagement review.

It's official!

2011-12-07T13:48:00.003+08:00

i'm getting married, yes...yes. i am. next year!

ok, it's not about that.

i'm doing part-time lecturing at Uitm! teaching diploma students (Diploma in Accountantcy) LAW 346 ie Introduction to Partnership and Company Law. Haha. teringat Mr Rizal, my lecturer who taught me that subject when i was in uni.

my first class has started last monday. nervous nak mengajar ok! tak pernah ajar org tup tap kena ajar budak diploma subjek law pulak tu. haha :p anyways, it went well. except, i finished kinda early. i reckon im gonna finish my classes early next time!

it's interesting to teach because at the same time you are also learning. i've forgotten about partnership and company law. so, while teaching, i'm also refreshing my mind. :) i hope i wont get transferred anytime soon (ie for my real job) :)

Alhamdulilah, rezeki nak kahwin rasanya. syukur. it's an interesting profession. i'm glad i took the offer. i hope i can teach them well. insyaAllah.

p/s didnt know teaching can be so tiring. i realized i sweat a little on my forehead. then when i went down the stairs right after my class, my knees were like waters. menggeletar! haha :p

hiatus

2011-11-28T10:29:00.005+08:00

i know i've abandoned this blog for quite some time but blame it on work! hehe. first of all i would like to wish SALAM MAAL HIJRAH to fellow muslims. may this year be a better year for all of us, Amin. so, what else is new?

i cut my hairrrr! from super long to short one! legaaaa. been having migraines on and off so, i thought maybe it's because of the hair.

from this..... (that's me and my bestie, at our other bestie's baby shower)

to this! tadaaaa

so, basically that is what's new for me! anyways, i've promised to do a review of my engagement. but that will be in the next post aight. as of now, i've got chores to do!

Preview

2011-10-22T16:54:00.004+08:00

Still haven't gotten official pics from my photog. but he maneged to give me a preview of my photos. hehe. here's one of it. tengoklah jejari ku. it reminds me of....hotdogs. yes, hotdogs.

Engaged!

2011-10-11T17:07:00.002+08:00

I'm engaged!!

hehe. ok,control, control tak boleh happy and excited sgt! haha. Alhamdulilah, everything went well and smooth sailing. syukur tak terhingga :) thank you to my lovely family and friends for without their help i wouldn't have this beautiful ceremony went on smoothly. i will do a review on my engagement about my MUA, dressmaker, khemah and whatnot. but in another post yea.

i've yet to get the pictures from my OP. hehe Abg Black yg sgt cool and baik. can't wait to see his masterpiece! hehe. so once i've got the pics ready, will upload and do the review. i can't wait to promote my MUA btw. she's the BOMB! hehe.

till then, tadaaaa!!!

3 days!

2011-10-06T21:12:00.003+08:00

3 more days and i'm nervous. there are still many things to do. but let me update on my checklist first. this is for my own reference, k? :)

1. engagement dress + veil - i've picked up from the dressmaker. Alhamdulilah, it's a GORJ! hehe.
2. make-up - booked and confirmed. hopefully, the make up will turn just fine.
3. hantaran deco - 30% more to be completed, insyaAllah.
4. food - i've confirmed the menu. nyummmsss :)
5. khemah and other deco - booked and confirmed/ bought
6. hantaran items - so far all have been bought/ordered
7. photographer - booked and confirmed
8. mini dais - booked and confirmed
9. doorgifts - 100% completed :)

i've sent out invitations. no, not by way of cards and whatnot. just texts and phone calls or face to face invites. i've even prepared the agendas to be discussed by both families. just so everyone can have a rough idea what's the discussion's gonna be like. this is to ensure smoothness of this event actually. however, this one thing really bothers me. spring cleaning. i'm such a hoarder. i keep and never throw away all those little stuffs even shoe boxes. kasut dah lama buang but the boxes are still in my room *sweat* and bila nak kemas rasa macam, aww..sayangnya. then i decided to keep them back. and it'll take hours for me to spring clean :p hehe

to any of my friends who are reading this, please pray that everything goes well yea? Amin. nothing else i want but that. i'm not doing ala GRANDE engagement. just a simple event with the main purpose of celebrating this special moment with my loved ones ie family and friends, insyAllah ;)

till then, no news from me until after engagement yea. wish me luck lovees!

:)

friends forever!

2011-09-17T11:01:00.004+08:00

i had uber fun last night with them girls. though one was missing but we still had fun. hehe. the outing was in conjunction with nani's birthday on 8th september. so, we decided to have a nice dinner and just have our moments together. we went for our dinner at monte's bsc. the food was good, i especially love nani's fettucini carbonara. i know, lameeee. but it was so sedaap like that! hehe.

this is mine. honey spring chicken.

yi vonn's fish and chip. sedap!

my fav of the night! fettucini carbonara!

moi!

besties!

one final pic of us :)

can't wait for our retreat soon!

Contented

2011-09-06T10:20:00.002+08:00

I am feeling contented now. Happy with work, family, friends. oh yea, speaking of friends, i had uber fun last night yamcha-ing with my junglemates. it was totally like going to the safari. gajah ada, badak ada, babi ada, cicak kobeng ada. semua pun ada. fyi, i'm the badak, nani's the gajah, yi vonn's the babi and huzai's the cicak kobeng. different species alltogether but we're the best of friends!

we hung out at our favorite spot, Berkat! dah jadi regulars! their tomyam ayam and nasi lemak ayam goreng is totally the BOMB! walaupun kedai mamak but their cook is Malay. hehe ;) anyways, it's great catching up with them just like old times.

good news came in too! huzai is now engaged. nani's bf going to risik her soon and yi vonn's gonna register marriage next year. and izwan (our other cicak kobeng) is coming back from Qatar for good ;) and also getting married next year. while Nat (our gorilla sister) is giving birth next MONTH! wow, great news huh? and the best thing is yi vonn's gonna change her career soon which means she's no longer working on weekends! yeay, more lepak time for us :)))

hah, all my junglemates are happily settling down with their lives. i'm so happy for them. i pray that this friendship will last forever. Amin :)

lovees, smiling inside out!

All's gonna be well

2011-09-05T11:59:00.002+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri! Just got back from my long, needed holiday. spent a good 4 days at my kampung yawww ;) haaaa..bliss! now i'm back at work full swing! so, how's you raya so far? mine was quite ok. Alhamdulilah, i didnt whallop that much food though! hahaha..kena jaga badan yewww!

best part was i had my fever towards the end of my holiday. what a way to end my holiday kan? but i still thank Allah because, dapat baik balik from fever. my fever was as high as 40degrees!

highest ever recorded. no wonder menggigil teruk gila!

as i'm writing this, i can't help but feeling excited for my engagement dress! tapi takut pun ada. takut tak jadi mcm yang nak. can't wait to go for fitting. lembaplah the dressmaker. sume nak kejar baju raya artis. haish :p

as nearer as it's getting, lagi banyak dugaan. and to make things worst, i've become overly sensitive with people, jokes, comments, and whatnot about one of the biggest event in my life. i donch like it when i'm overly sensitive. always cry. me no likey. tension okeh!

so i have to constantly remind myself to calm down and sabar, sabar and sabar. it's ok. practice makes perfect. hehe.

alright, gotta move on with work. surprisingly, not many people are working today. still in raya holiday kot. jalan pun lengang. heh. tak aci.

lovees,

back to work!

Too much

2011-08-16T20:12:00.003+08:00

too much to handle today. met with an accident during lunch time. was on my way to sec. 7 from the office. and suddenly a student on a motorcycle hit my car. the boy fell off his motorcycle. nasib baik tak mati if not i would be charged and go to prison kot!

the boy admitted it was his fault. Alhamdulilah, the person who was driving behind my car stopped by and said to me, it was his fault.

went to follow the boy to the clinic. i didn't lodge police report though since it wasn't my car i was driving. haih...

i'm still in shock. i saw the boy's skin fell off and blood rushing down his hand, knee, foot..haih..budak, budak...

he was concerned about the car. kereta kemek jugakla..me on the other hand, tak sampai hati nak mintak budak tu bayar. so i said to him, you go settle your part and i'll go settle mine. so now, ive to bear my own cost. takpelah, takde rezeki (walaupun bonus baru masuk). saya redha.

pengajaran : kepada bebudak kat shah alam ni yang naik motor, tolongla be careful sikit! kalau tak kisah nyawa sendiri, kesian la kat mak bapak korang. hish.

re : check list.

2011-08-15T08:41:00.002+08:00

check lists are supposed to be updated from time to time. so here goes.

1. engagement dress and veil - awaiting date for fitting

2. make-up - checked (to remind MUA of the date and time)

3. hantaran deco and handbouquet - have decided to go with one colour only for both. Niceeee!

4. food - awaiting confirmation from ma and pa of the menus.

5. khemah - booked! :)

6. other decos - still in progress

7. hantaran items - list has been finalized. to be ordered soon.

8. photographer - booked! :)

9. mini dais -booked! :) as i rationalized with myself, i have to re-consider my mom's condition. kesian dia nak turun naik if the sarung cincin event is to be done at my room. hence, mini dais it is! :)

10. doorgifts - still in progress and to be done by my lovely SIL and cousins :)

Alhamdulilah. although i feel that time is not at my side. but i managed to settle it all bit by bit. and it's really touching when my cousins are all pretty excited and has lent me their helping hands. awwwww :) syukur.

ps : not so good news is that i still have 10kgs to go. aiyaaaak! 1 bulan 3 minggu dan 4 hari lagi. insyaAllah. must work hard though. :)

;(

2011-08-04T08:03:00.002+08:00

been really busy and stressed out at work due to some new implemented system here. and i'm the person in charge. not doing a good job so far. felt really unguided. should not point fingers now, let's just focus to solve any incoming problems. come what may...

hence, preps for engagement terabai. have yet to decide for hantaran theme and mini dais. thank god, 2 more months to go. insyaAllah, He is with me.

btw, Salam Ramadhan to everyone!

lovees

signing out

KFCM putus tunang

2011-07-31T11:10:00.002+08:00

selamat datang ke ruangan gossip littlebiglovees pd pagi Ahad ini..

khabar angin bahawa hubungan KFCM berantakan dengan tunangnya adalah benar dan ini disahkan lagi dengan press statement by KFCM bahawa beliau telah memutuskan pertunangannya dengan kekasihnya Elia (now ex-fiancee).

punca kepada perpisahan tersebut dikatakan bermula apabila, KFCM dilihat bersama wanita lain di sebuah tempat sambil berpegangan tangan. dan sejak daripada itu, hubungannya dan Elia berantakan.

apa-apa pun, penulis berharap ini merupakan penyelesaian kepada masalah yang melanda KFCM dan Elia. moga-moga kedua-dua pihak dapat meneruskan hidup masing-masing tanpa sebarang dendam kesumat atau sebagainya. diharap KFCM dapat memberikan fokus kepada kariernya di masa akan datang.

buat Elia, kumbang bukan seekor. sudah tersurat bahawa beliau bukanlah jodoh anda. tetapi jodoh dan ketentuan adalah di tangan Tuhan. mungkin beliau bukan jodoh anda sekarang tapi siapa tahu satu hari nanti dia akan pulang ke pangkuan anda. semoga Elia sentiasa tabah dan bersabar :)

ps : terror tak saya jadi penulis ruangan gossip? do you think im eligible to have my own ruangan gossip artis?? hehehe...

Cool

2011-07-08T22:57:00.004+08:00

i love make up and hairdo. been obsessed with it since i was a kiddy. i used to take my mom's lipstick quietly and go hide somewhere (for eg: bwh meja) took a small mirror and put on the lipstick on my lips! hehe. i've been doing some research for make ups and beauty tips. 2 of my favs are :-

i) you can actually curl your lustrous locks with strips of paper bag!! can't believe it??? watch this!!

cool right?? useful for those who doesn't own hair curler at home!

ii) we normally use heat to style and curl our hair. why not use the heat to curl our eyelashes! you heard that right!! use a hair dryer and heat you eyelash curler for few seconds. then, carefully curl you eyelashes and voila!!!! lagi naik bulu mata.

sekian, terima kasih. i'll share other useful tips next time!

lovees

I GOTTA FEELING!

2011-07-04T12:37:00.003+08:00

i gotta feeling that this blog is somewhat turning into a B2B blog. haha. but it's just for the purpose of sharing and retrieving useful information about weddings from other B2Bs outhere! yeay!

well, honestly speaking, i've been surveying a lot of wedding blogs, magazines, etc for almost 3 years now..not because i am getting married but because of my interest with wedding stuffs etc.

the feeling of having to prepare a lot of things for a wedding is surely overwhelming. the excitement and at the same time having to go through the pressure from people around you and the environment itself. believe me i'm starting to feel it! lol.

i used to DIY my brothers' and sister's engagement and nikah's hantaran since 2004. pictures? aiyo dah lama lah mana nak dapat kan. bersepah here and there. well, i wasn't the only one who did it all. of course there was a team of my sil, my maksu and of course my mom. SSF was our second home that time. lol! my mom even learnt how to make dip flower. semangat kan! but that was before she had fallen sick. ;(

so back to the original topic. i even added the little thing called jhyello there for the convenience of sharing information about wedding and other stuffs. hehe. suddenly i'm so shy! haha. to other B2Bs or not B2Bs out there who want to link my blog to yours, feel free to do it and vice versa! yeay! (lepas 2 tahun ada blog baru nak ckp pasal nak link!) :p

tiba-tiba mood excited pulak! haha.

but at the end of the day, i always have to put in my mind that despite the excitement and all, the most important thing is me and him. of course the journey to our big day won't be as smooth as we want it to be. but there's this thing call doa and faith. pray to Him and have faith that everything will be fine, insyaAllah. everything is upon His mercy. and not forgetting, sabar. sabar dengan dugaan yang melanda. these are among the important things when you feel like giving up.

lovees, signing out

lapar sangat ;(

prep!

2011-06-27T11:06:00.003+08:00

i'm getting engaged this October. ehem ehem. happy, happy! so let me share my preparation with you out there ie what i've done, what i've not done etc, etc / checklist. so, here goes!

1. engagement dress + veil - checked

2. make-up - checked

3. hantaran deco and handbouquet - to be done by my super talented colleague! yeay! but i'm so SMART that i have yet to decide what the theme of my hantaran should be. there's time!

4. food - sdn bhd. since it's gonna be during tea time, there's not much to prepare.

5. khemah and other deco - still in progress

6. hantaran items - to be finalized and then can buy already! mostly, food! hehe

7. photographer - to be discussed further

8. mini dais - i've mentioned to mama i just want the sarung cincin event to be done in my bedroom but i think she's more excited than i am, she had veto-ed me and decided to have a mini dais for me! yikes! but still, to be confirmed and discussed further!

9. doorgifts - still in progress and to be done by my lovely SIL

* date : 9th October 2011/ 9.10.11

we're gonna be engaged for a year, a month and a day. so our solemnization date will be on 1oth November 2012/ 10.11.12 which conveniently falls on a saturday. i'm sure ramai org will be getting married on that date!

hehe, pandai tak kami planning? i know many people have come up to me and said that it's not good to be engaged for so long. can that be considered long? but due to financial constraints plus the date that we want, we had to fix the date and the period of engagement that way. both sides' parents have agreed on our reasoning, thank God! it's good enough for us to get their blessings, so, lain cerita, belakang kira, right?!

i think that is all for now. i still have time to browse and decide about those things which i've yet to settle. insyaAllah.

have i missed out anything? kindly let me know!

retail therapy pronto!

2011-06-23T12:08:00.002+08:00

i need some retail therapy since i'm having the MOOD this morning. a lot of things annoy me. even the simplest and smallest thing.

how do people get so committed in waking up early, go to work, lunch then work then go home and later sleeps. i mean, it's so routined! don't you all think so? i think, so! i think i'm a little too complacent with where i am now. there's no challenges. and that's where i get bored. i'm not saying that i don't have any problems cum challenges..i do. but Alhamdulilah, all are manageable at the moment. i want satisfaction.

ok, i am actually talking about my work.

it's happening to most of the people i know esp those who are my age and have started working for almost 3 years now. i mean there used to be excitement...but now? all is left is ..boredom!

i don't want to job hop at the same time. because i used to have an ambition. and my ambition requires me to stay where i am now. i'm so di persimpangan jalan!

can i apply a job as a housewife?

on an unrelated note.

*if u have seen the ticker on top of my blog..yes, i am getting engaged this October, insyaAllah. i pray that the journey towards our wedding is as smooth as it can be, Amin.

ooohhhh ahhhhhhh

2011-06-10T21:51:00.002+08:00

something big is happening tomorrow and i'm pretty much excited.

but i'm kinda nervous as well.

anyways, my bf's aunty just passed away this morning. takziah to him and arwah's family. :(

but life has gotta move on...

there's so many things to do on my list but i've only settled 2 of them. many more to go.

lovees,

signing out.

Ipoh!

2011-06-01T21:25:00.009+08:00

let the pictures do the talking this time. attended his friend's wedding and and a lil bit of sight seeing :)

on the way to Ipoh :)

his friends and mine too ;)

the bride and groom

hehehehe

testing :p

most beautiful waterfall

thanks to him for showing me around Ipoh :)

JALSOA 2011

2011-05-21T21:50:00.007+08:00

Attended the judicial and legal service association last night at Legend Hotel. Better than last year's event. the food was, unfortunately chinese course again. heard that it's the third time in a row this year but this time is better than last year's.

best thing was, i get to perform on stage! i played percussion. and the next best thing was..
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i knowww right!

came back with the image of him on my mind. yeah, fn was a lil bit jealous with my celebrity infatuation but it was definitely harmless! hehehe...

oh btw i just bought my very own camera! i knowww, after so long right?? i dragged myself to low yat and within 2 hours, i was a proud owner of this!

yeay! so now i can upload more sceneric pictures of everywhere i go. hehe..

alright, that's about it all.

lovees,

in infatuation :)

Happy, happy :)

2011-04-28T21:10:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulilah, anytime soon the ZNF (Zaharifudin, Naterah and Family) will be extending. Now awaiting my dear sister in law to deliver anytime soon (prolly next week). And then i've just found out that my other sister in law is also pregnant! with the third baby :) syukur Alhamdulilah. Murah rezeki family i. Due date is also this year.

My sister on the other hand is still trying to conceive. She's been married for almost 5 years but still no rezeki yet. She's currently doing the IVF and let's pray for my dear sister and brother in law. InsyaAllah.

Mom said if my sister gets pregnant, she's gonna pack up her stuff, get her tongkat and runnnnn! hahahahaha, so funny la you, Ma!

Whatever it is, i can never stop counting my blessings from HIM. Syukur..

can't wait to have my own baby! hehe gatal!

let's go to indonesia tonight :)

2011-04-12T20:39:00.000+08:00

ooh, and take a look at my niece's video. her name is aamal and she's 2yrs 3months old.

morning!

2011-04-01T08:16:00.000+08:00

i know my clock down there says it's a diff time but it's actually 8.17am now. i have no idea how to change the time. i know, im so buta IT like that!

a lil update of my 2 weeks off from the office. i just got back from my induction course (for confirmation/sah jawatan)at Bangi and my first judicial conference at Melaka.

Induction was tiring. everything was compact and squeezed to 7 days program(fyi, it used to be 1 month!). and the last day being the exam day. i know! exam! after 3 years of graduation! haha. but one thing for sure is it was very much interesting. i learnt about something that we didn't learn in schools or uni. now, i appreciate the government more :) haha. later on, we were tested with the exam and Alhamdulilah it went quite ok.

the next day (after the exam) i had to re-pack my stuff again to go to Melaka for my judicial conference. excited since it was my first time since i joined service. boy, there were so many of us. close to 600 juducial officers from all over Malaysia. and it was good seeing familiar faces :) the conference was tiring too. everything was so compact and the distance to move about was far from one place to another. haiyooh! although i couldn't wait for the conference to end but it was a bit sad though coz it was the last time that Tun would be with us. He's retiring soon. ;( but one's gotta move on aite?

so basically that was a lil bit of my 2 weeks off. inspiring, motivating and refreshing, i would say :)

hooyeh!

2011-03-28T23:43:00.000+08:00

Bismillahirahmanirahim,

Dengan nama Allah yang pemurah dan lagi penyayang, makbulkanlah doaku agar kali ini ianya menjadi. Kau yang Maha Mengetahui apa yang terbaik untukku dan semoga arah inilah yang terbaik sekali untukku. Segala ketentuan dan suratan takdir akan ku redhai. Ku harap inilah yang dapat mengakhiri segala kacau bilau dalam jiwaku. Amin yarabbilalamin.

prayer for tonite. before i close my eyes. well, actually it's nothing serious but i do take it seriously though, lol. insyaAllah, things will change for once and no, i'm not quitting my job and no, neither have i broken up with him. i want to be really HAPPY this time. so, i must work really HARD.

Amin.

Talk it out

2011-03-09T09:46:00.000+08:00

I miss having pillow talk.

I miss having all girls talk.

I miss having serious talk with my best friend.

I miss having all that trash talk with my best friend.

I miss my best friend.

I miss to TALK.

lovees.

saya benci!

2011-02-27T11:02:00.000+08:00

i hate dissing people especially in blogs or facebook or wherever lah. but it was at the top of my limit yesterday. i know i am a lil bit difficult in accepting criticism especially if the criticism is regarding my physical look (re : weight). i know i've gained weight terribly this past 3 years. i admit, i am FAT now but i don't need people telling me or highlighting THAT fact to me. i know that! trust me, i know. but i am fine and happy with myself. as long as i am healthy, then that is fine with me. i never hear my boyfriend complains about my body. i never hear my family complain about my body.

but you. yes, you. i seldom meet you and was never close to you in university. and you have the guts to actually tell me to my face "sorry, macam tak cam tadi sebab titi macam dah makin "SIHAT" ". and to make things worst, my other friend, who already has a baby pun ckp "i pun makin bam bam jugak". lepastu dia ckp apa tau "alah, u takpe u ada baby". what do you think i would feel at that point of time. gila pedas.

ei, gi mati lah. please look at the mirror and see your own reflection before criticizing people. at least i'm NOT the one who's qualified to be in BIGGEST LOSER like YOU. ada hati nak cakap org lain makin sihat padahal dia tu dah terlebih sihat. hahahahaha...

ok, pms alert! that's why i'm a little bit emotional. but seriously, that was not the first time she said that to me. kalau aku nak komen pasal kau boleh je la. apesal kau bukak tudung? ingat cun sgt ke? rambut macam dawai besi ada hati buka tudung. kau ingat kau tu kurus sgt ke nak komen pasal badan org lain? kalau kau tu supermodel, badan slim gile, cun...aku tak kisah. komenla...ni badan layak masuk biggest loser lagi nak ckp org. cermin la diri kau tu sikit.

OK, i know this is so not me. i tak kutuk org yang sgt kasihan macam dia. i am never like that. Astaghfirullah.

that was my pms taking over my mind and body.

but lesson to be learn is that, please,please if you haven't meet people for a long time and see that the person has gained weight, or lose weight drastically or whatever la, please don't hightlight that fact to that person. it's offensive la. come on. i mean some people can accept criticism like that but not me. saya marah dan saya bengang. because i'm perfectly happy with the way i am. until came you.

yes you.

of spa, best friends and baseball

2011-02-16T08:18:00.000+08:00

spa and best friends? i geddit. but baseball?? hahaha...i know right. that's exactly what i did the whole of tuesday (yesterday). org maulud nabi gi selawat, sedekah fatihah. ni, keluar melilau-lilau. lol.

anyways, yeah i went for some bestie spa session at my aunty's spa at Bangsar. it was totally awesome! the service was awesome. my best friend did everything from top to toe and definitely felt rejuvenated after the session. me, on the other hand had hair spa, foot spa and threading. but the quality time spent was the most valuable of course and definitely worth every penny. quote : nani!

so after that, met up with the girls, zaza (so cute, she's pregnant!!!), nurul and sherry. the regulars. missed them so much. catch up with everyone. gelaak2 lpastu high sebab the chawan frappers was so deng thick! hahahaha..

later, went to OU to look for my bf's wroking pants. but before that he brought me to upper roof. nak main baseball katanya. i was deng nervous sebab the bola laju gilaaaaaa!! was imagining what if the ball hit my eye ke apa..what if i buta. yadi yadi yada...so, i gave ita try and it was awesomeeeeeeeeeee!! me likey. but lepas tu salah urat sebab tak warm up and sebab salah twist. hahahahahahaha...so went back looking for his working pants, got one, paid and off we went for dinner with is family.

definitely counting my blessings.

lovees

xoxo

Success!

2010-12-31T22:05:00.000+08:00

I challenged myself this week. to climb up broga hill today with him. he was very much surprised when i came up with the idea because i LOATHE outdoor activities. seriously, not kidding.

of course he was excited. so, we decided that today would be the perfect day since it's a public holiday. yeay! off we went as early as 6.30am and we reached there around 7.30. it's at semenyih by the way. agak jauh lah. well, broga hill makin famous ever since sheikh muzaffar took his pre-wed pics there. buaian tu sume ada kat situ. the climb was sooooooo challenging for me. i even vomitted sbb i pushed myself so hard to climb the hill. malu gila he had to witness me vomitting. nasib baik dia pun tak rasa nak muntah sekali. haha..

it took me almost an hour to reach the peak due to several stops and almost fainting moments. seriously if it wasn't for him, i would have definitely turned back and walk down the hill, back to our car.

the view was really breath taking i tell you! mmg cantik, the weather was perfect. clear blue skies with so many burung layang-layang terbang. trademark broga hill is of course the lalang i supposed. sebab lalang dia bukan yang biasa. it's the prettier one. eh ada ke lalang cantik? and ramai gila org dekat peak tuu..they came as early as 4.30 in the morning to watch sunrise. too bad we were late.

so we took loadsa pictures, then turun bawah. lepas tu dah peluh-peluh pergi mandi sungak dekat Sg. Tekala. Best!!! refreshing!!! hehe..lepas tu, balik. then pergi KL for foot massage. before that pergi Times Sq. penat gila. and then plan nak celebrate new year, tak jadi sebab penat sangat!! haha,tapi tak kisah pun. because i had the most AWESOME time ever today!

i had fun with him. but most importantly, i've succeeded! i proved to myself (and him) that i actually can DO IT! hehe. i feel so energetic, i feel like nak sepak semua benda! boleh ke?? hahaha lol

hopefully this would remain sampai bila-bila,this semangat of mine!

Run!!!!

2010-12-30T22:09:00.000+08:00

Well, i've started running. it's what i've been wanting to do since.....this year perhaps? i know i'm a little bit ambitious when i have this plan in my mind. i want to join a marathon 1 day. if those runners can do it, why can't i? i may not be fit as they are but i will make my body fit for this purpose. so, i've made a pact with boyfie. at least i need a year to be properly fit to run in a marathon. and i'll train hard for this. insya-Allah.

i'll start little by little, you know like baby steps. slowly and hopefully someday i can run 10km (or even more) freely without any stops or worst, pengsan tengah jalan! and i've got this cute trainer who's gonna train me....hehehe siapa lagi kalau bukan dia kan? well, at least he's more fit than me and he knows a lil bit about working out and bla,bla,bla..i was there when he was busy doing the research! ;p

the purpose is that i wanna challenge myself. i have never challenged myself for something like this (except once where i did lose 13 kilos after 4 months diet. but i didn't run that time. it was purely weight lifting and a little it of cardio works). i've always have this thought in my head that i CANNOT run since i was.....a baby?? yeah, running scares me to death! so, to conquer this fear of running, i have to overcome the fear itself by......running la!

but most importantly, i wanna be healthy and fit. running do wonders to my body. i makes me glow after a full running session and i'm loving every bit of it. you know, my experience handling a sick person at home (ie mom) makes me realize how important it is for us to exercise! it'll help clear up our clogged arteries!! and you know diseases start with clogged arteries (i feel like writing UPSR essay with the title : advantages of running" )lol.

whatever it is. let's be serious this time titi!!! you can do it!

yeah!

p.s berdiri bulu roma tengok pasukan Harimau Malaya kita menang Piala AFF. Alhamdulilah, penantian berbelas tahun! am proud of you, team! sila kekalkan prestasi anda dan JANGAN LEKA!!! :)

Depression

2010-12-29T22:44:00.000+08:00

so, i've been a little bit depressed lately. especially with the issue of weight gain and other things which have been accumulating through out this couple of months. at first i thought that maybe it was my pre-menstrual syndrom which i particularly go through every month (and yes, i have very bad pms!! tell me about sudden binge-ing and food craving, and mood swings!)

then, i noticed that a week has passed and another week passed and i've even gotten my period already and i still feel miserable. why, i asked myself? since, i am a bit paranoid and panicky when it comes to questions i couldn't answer, i decided to.......google about this strange feeling i've been having.

so, yeah. confirmed. signs of depression. i even took the stress test. confirmed. YOU ARE DEPRESSED. shait. is it bad? how bad could this be? well, those depression signs include feelings of miserable, depressed (duhh), fatigue, loss of appetite or increased appetite (that's me!), worthless, self-esteem problem , cranky and irritable and others. it is bad and it acquires medical attention if that person keeps thinking about suicide. Thank Allah SWT i was born a Muslim and hell NO, i'm gonna kill myself!

but another question pops out. why am i depressed? what is the cause? whats the trigging factor? i can't answer that. i don't know. i mean the environment could contribute to it. apart from that it is also hereditary. but other than that. i can't see the reason causing it.

i hope it won't be for long. not till to the extent that i wanna kill myself (God forbids). haha. as far as i know, i still can control it. sometimes, it can go out of hand. sometimes i can manage it. i don't wanna end up visiting a shrink!!!

p.s had a great time with nurul and sherry for mine and sherry's birthday celebration. Alhamdulilah. Thank you nurul for the effort! sayang you. and thank you sherry for the lovely gift :)

Of feelings

2010-11-28T01:02:00.000+08:00

After all those laughters, great times i have by spending time with my beautiful family and friends, i feel ....and still feel empty. Something is missing. But i'm not sure what it is.

Damn.

Lovees,

*on thinking mode.

kasut oh kasut

2010-11-22T14:12:00.000+08:00

kenapa kedai kasut kat malaysia jual kasut size kecik je hah? nyampah.

over the weekend ;)

2010-11-15T10:39:00.000+08:00

my birthday was over a week ago. that 8/11/2010 marked my quarter century. feel a lil bit old now. should have gotten married already by this time and have kids next year. but here i am, single (not available), and kid-less.

anyways, the COLLEAGUES arranged some lunch that day and damn, i ate like tomorrow's the end of the world. Alhamdulilah, rezeki. thank you guys!! XD apart from that 2 days later, had another luncheon with the same colleagues celebrating my other colleague's birthday, Nadia. She also turned 25, married and has a kid of her own. :p

i had another romantic celebration with boyfie. he took me to this place BIJAN, next to nero vivo. the food was nice (and a lil bit pricey). it was a restaurant that serves malay food. lauk kampung semua ada. the food was nice and according to him, they served the best bergedil he ever tasted in his entire life. Sampai macam tu dia described. unfortunately, he has KIV-ed my birthday gift. :( can't wait to see what my brithday gift is this year.

and over the weekend, i attended my best friend's wedding at Summit Hotel, USJ. Afiura's marrieddddddddddddd!!!!!!! Macam tak percaya, because she is like my childhood best friend and we grew up together. And now she's married. Sob,sob. Terharu i.. :( but regardless, i'm happy for her. extremely. :)

so, yeah that was a lil of me over the weekend.

*Selamat Menyambut Hari Raya Aidiladha. Sedih tak dapat puasa hari ni sebab tak tau hari ni hari wukuf arafah. :(

BACK!

2010-11-11T13:21:00.000+08:00

Hello sweet november. since i was little, i've always loved the month of november. there's just something about november (apart from my birthday which falls every november the eight). and now december is approaching soon. don't you think that time is moving a little to fast nowadays and it's hard to even catch up with it? i definitely feel that now since 8 to 5 is just like 2 hours for me. ok, melampau la kan? but you got what i'm saying right?

and tonight, (11/11/2010) my best friend since primary school will be a wifey. congratulations afiura. how time flies from the day we were in your bedroom, singing all those spice girls songs! then came secondary school, then came uni and then came working life. and now, u're turning to be someone's wife! and soon becoming a mommy pulak. :)Alhamdulilah.

Anyways, ive new hair. haha. i coloured my hair yesterday evening. u know when u suddenly feel the urge to do something crazy? yeah, thats what i felt yesterday and i thought, why not? its always something i've always wanted to do since like forever. i chose the colour that't not too bright. something more au naturale. eheh.
i'm loving it. and i can't stop flipping my hair back and forth. and everytime i pass by a mirror, i must look at my hair. vainpot. mcam tak percaya! bye, bye virgin hair! but i decided not to put any highlights or to have my hair short. i love my hair to be long altough it's more trendy and stylo to have short or mid length hair. like i used to have.:p

well everybody seems to like it and say that it's nice and suits my skintone, yada,yada,yada. hehe ;) Alhamdulilah. thank god i chose the right colour kan? well, its my first time to dye my hair so its a pretty big thing for me. because of all things that i have on my body, my hair is what i love the most.....about me!

ok, enough about my hair. i'm not eating rice for almost a month now and i've started to jog. Alhamdulilah. hopefully i'll see some results in a couple of months. i wanna run...............................

in a marathon.

can i?

shaddap uuuuuuu!!!!!

of another weekend and 2011 budget

2010-10-16T12:12:00.000+08:00

my menses is late by 10 days. kak diana said my cycle is somewhat affected by her pregnancy and plus, my SIL is pregnant too. so, i guess that is the reason (maybe). although it's a little bit unusual for my menses to be late or too early.

moving on, the kids are going to spend the next 5 days at my place. their parents went for honeymoon for 5 days and left the kids behind. kesiannn :p so, here comes mak titi to take care of them for the next 5 days :p aduhh.

on an unrelated note, yesterday was the presentation of the 2011 budget. as far as i'm concerned i can say that the budget brought a lot of good news to the me, as a civil servant and also to the Rakyat. Alhamdulilah. Najib is really working hard to win the heart of the people/to gain more supporters before the next general election. words on the street it that it'll be next year but have yet to be confirmed on which date and month. i pray that BN will win big this time due to the lack of performance by PR and DAP.just look at Selangor. :( as a true selangorian, a lot have been changed and most of us selangorians are complaining and we, definitely have a lot of dissatisfactions towards the PR government but i will not disclose it here. let's hope and pray for the best, shall we! uuuh, that reminds me, i haven't register myself as a voter. jom daftar! then, we can sing this along "marilah, mari....pergi mengundi".

anyhoos, gotta get going. promised the kids i will take them for a swim. off we go!!!

lovees,

lovee-ing the weekend!

mengumpat dan mengeji

2010-10-08T15:30:00.000+08:00

dalam hidup ni, manusia kalau tak mengumpat dan mengeji memang tak sah. and i'm not an exception to that. sometimes i'm guilty of doing the same too, Astagfirullah. well, obviously the act of mengumpat and mengeji was not done intentionally (for me at least).

so, this post is not about me. it is about someone who i know. kesian, i listened to what my friend told me yesterday. i pity her. i do. honestly. but i told her this, "kalau kita layan gosip-gosip, fitnah yang tak betul ni, takde faedah. nanti kita pun jadi macam diorang. buat apa nak retaliate benda-benda macam ni. yes, you should defend yourself when situation gets out of hand. but give them back not the hard way as they give you. if they say you pemalas, then do your work as if tomorrow is your last day of working."

"but most importantly, to be sabar banyak-banyak. and pray to Allah that He'll give you strength and patience to go through this. Be strong." that was all that i could say to her.

if you tabur fitnah just to satisfy your vengeance, it simply shows how low your standard is. main kotor.

the power of word and setence could destroy one's reputation just like that. al-fitna as-syaddu minal qhat.

lovees,

on insaf mode.

no particular title for this one

2010-10-07T11:43:00.000+08:00

hmm, whenever i want to blog, the last thing would come to my mind is the title. i blog whenever i feel like blogging though i don't really have any particular topic to blog about. thinking about what to put at the TITLE really bothers me. sometimes i just put it for the sake of putting though it is non-related to my post. huhu :p

yeah, life is as normal as it is. work is as normal as it is. hmm, what else? hehe. oh yeah! i just came up with a brilliant idea for me and my friends! i decided all four of us would throw a birthday bash for.........US! haha, since we haven't got the chance to celebrate nani's birthday, natasha's birthday, my birthday and yi vonn's birthday. so, the four of us decided, hey, why can't we just do it together?? it's a private party of course since there's gonna be around 8 of us only. but i'm so looking forward to it :) hihi.

So, that is all for now? btw, have you guys watched SATC 2? I've watched it a long time ago but i like this particular scene where SJP was at Abu Dhabi-she couldn't sleep that night and decided to make herself a glass of warm milk-got shocked by her servant because she didn't dismiss him. Ingat tak?? And remember she was wearing this see-through caftan in white and oh-so-gorgeous??? *sigh* keep having that image on my mind over and over again.

;) *ting!!!!!

a little update on moi

2010-09-04T21:55:00.000+08:00

yes, i know i've been neglecting my blog for a while. been really busy with stuffs of late and plus, never had the mood to update much on myself :(

anyhoos, ramadhan has come and is going to end soon. Raya is just around the corner. Alhamdulilah, this year's ramadhan is better than last year. a lil bit more rajin to perform terawikh and i've learnt some skills to cook and bake too! :)

this year, is the most busy ramdhan ever! with our family business at the bazaar and cookies for raya, there's a lot to juggle. but i' m thankful though because, we've ben getting some helping hands by everyone particularly, kak farah, kak nadia and maksu. Alhamdulilah.

i've done nothing for my Raya preparation. huhu. not in the mood, much. i guess must be because i'm tired. hee.

so, would like to take this opportunity in advance to wish all of you lovelies, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI. Maaf zahir dan batin. Semoga kita bertemu kembali di Ramadhan akan datang. Wassalam.

Lovees, out and about.

one fine day

2010-07-07T16:50:00.000+08:00

woke up, took my bath, went to work.

arrived at the office, made myself a cup of nescafe (which is a must before i start the day) and off i went to the highest floor for my cases.

after hearing all cases, went down to my room, did my profile and other admin stuffs till 12 pm almost 1.

went out for lunch, then came back for more work. called here, called there, meeting with staff, profile somemore, walk here, walk there to look for people. lawyers here, lawyers there came to see me for only God knows what. work,work,work. i've still have work to do. met an ex-classmate. he asked how's work. i said i busy gila. omg. i pening. he said yeah, i could tell from the hair. gee, thanks. not helping.

now 10 more minutes before 5. must blog. all in all i'm happy that i am productive all day. syukur Alhamdulilah. that is my short term goal that i've set in my mind right after i'd awaken from a good night sleep. goal accomplished. for today.

but knowing work. it'll never end but keeps on coming. thank Allah i like my job.

-end-

sunday morning

2010-07-04T11:32:00.000+08:00

it's a wet sunday morning, everyone!! i'm wake awake already doing chores and errands...hah..am taking a short break before proceeding with other chores. basically, i'm a domestic goddess today!

last night, we (me + family) went out to celebrate mama 's birthday. had to postpone it since i couldn't join the others the other day for mama's birthday dinner. i'm glad mama loved her birthday present. i got her a pair of earring. i also bought one for me sebab cantik sangat! hehe.

we had dinner at johnny's. ok, i don't think i can have anymore steamboat for the rest of the year. muak!. haha. cakap pasal steamboat ni, i know a place where they have steamboat and bbq at the same time. memang sedaaaap! serious, tak tipu. u cook evertyhing yourself. just pick out the raw materials (which have been marinated) then pilih la either you want to put it in the steamboat or you want to bbq it. haha. but caution! kalau nak pergi sana, jangan pakai cantik2-cantik or even put on your make-up. just go there for the food, tak payah cantik-cantik. by the end of the dinner, you'll have grease on you hair, face and etc...memang comot la pendek kata.

ooh, the place is called Bangsar Seafood Terminal. They have a website, just google it. hehe.

on the other note, my ex-classmate and now turns colleague just delivered a baby girl. Adara Nadine. Sedap kan nama dia. Alhamdulilah everything's well with the mummy and baby. have yet to visit the mummy and the newborn. but i will certainly go visit her.

alright, gotta continue with the house chores. till then,

lovees signing out.

goodbye dearest :(

2010-07-03T12:37:00.000+08:00

i had a farewell dinner for our beloved kak huda last night. she got transferred to alor star, as a magistrate. well, i am confident enough that she'll be as good as she was here at MTSA. amin.

we had our farewell dinner cum karaoke session at the Red Box, Pyramid. Can you believe that it was my first time at Red Box? Haha. Asyik pergi karok kat Quality Hotel je, tak pernah pegi tempat lain langsung. Hehe. By the way, Tuan Azmil aka Koroner Azmil Muntapha 'open table' malam tadi. So sweet, Tuan! Hehe, thank you. Oh yeah, that man can sing ok??! Haha. Versatile and multi-talented :)

There were 8 of us MTSA-ians. Including dicky's friend and kak huda's bf. It started off with our waka-waka song. Hehe, maklumlah football fever. Then to fantasi bulan madu by search to lagu untukmu by MUH then followed by dangduts songs. Fuh, layan beb. Hehe.

When kak huda had to leave, one by one of us hugged her for the last time (macam tak jumpa lagi lepas ni, kan?)and bid our farewell. Ok, tak drama lah kalau tak nangis kan? I had to cry this time because we're just too close at the office. Partner in crime la, food passion-ista, mary kay and facial buddies, gossip monggers, dan banyak lagi.

Fit and kak husna decided to create a photo album (a very,very,very cute one) for kak huda. I took a look last night and i couldn't stop crying. sedih la pulak kan?

To kak huda, this does not mean a forever goodbye. I'll be seeing you again and again after this. I mean how far can we go right? judiciary is not that big. Hehe. Take care kak. your presence did light up my dull working life! I'll always pray for your well being. Jangan lupa eclipse. Together with the rest of our fellow cullens' and blacks' descendants!

Love always,

lovees

oh lamanya :)

2010-06-11T17:08:00.000+08:00

it's been ages i've not updated this blog of mine. anyways, june's here and everyone's getting hitched this month. anyhows, i would like to congratulate my dearest friend/cousin for getting married. i'm soo happy for you dear. i will always pray that ur jodoh dipanjangkan, dimurahkan rezeki dan semoga sihat sentiasa.

i would also like to congratulate my dear classmates and batchmates, Sarah Munirah, Lily, Ninie, and others too.

lovees,

to the next weddingdongbells.

empire shopping gallery

2010-05-19T10:23:00.001+08:00

do you know, it's the one facing the federal at subangjaya? they've opened up and i went to chekitdaud yesterday with him. nothing new, was actually eyeing something at toys r us. toys r us dah pindah ke situ. well, the mall was ok lah. but the best part is dekat situ ada CHARLES AND KEITH!!!!!!

hahahahah, im sooooooooo happy coz its getting nearer and nearer to my hommeeeee ;P senang la. kalau malam2 teringin nak kasut cnk, i boleh je drop by without going through the traffic jam. bukan macam dekat sunway pyramid!!! hihihihi.

ok, that is all.

lovees.

pendendam

2010-05-18T13:29:00.000+08:00

sometimes, i am that. i can't take it if the other person who has hurt me is yet to be hurt by..me. am i selfish for feeling that way?

rough phase

2010-05-13T11:49:00.000+08:00

i'm going thru this phase now.

emotionally unstable, depressed, disappointed, angry, sad, and all those negative vibes that one can imagine is within me now.

but worst of all, i feel numb.

not liking these feelings. Allah, please grant me strength and patience.

...

Happy Mother's Day, Ma.

2010-05-10T12:02:00.001+08:00

when i was just a little girl, i've always been afraid of mama. she's fierce and garang. just the sound of her voice can cause me shivers all over my body.

when i was a teenager, i didin't like the way i was brought up. there were some things i could not accept. i had tough times adjusting to puberty, emotions, feelings, myself, and ma. she always wanted things to be her way and i never get things MY WAY. we never talked. but deep down we knew we both loved each other dearly. i was always the behaved one in our siblings. it was harder when she had menopouse.

when i was in my early 20s (am still now,hehe), things started to change drastically between me and ma. i began to slowly open up to her. we could talk. i wasn't afraid of her anymore. i turned myself to be a gossipmonger (like her). haha. she changed too. i love having her around all the time. i just can't take it if don't hear her voice even for one second in my life.

until that unfortunate day when she had her stroke attack. her left side isn't able to move normally now. i wasn't there for her that much since my classes and assignments were taking a bulk of my time. i remembered when i was sleeping next to her one night. she woke up and called me to help her get her up. she could't sleep. then, she asked me this question. "why me?"

i answered with tears swelling up in my eyes. i knew i had to be strong. i said "mama, jangan tanya macam tu. ni semua dugaan for you and for us too. mama sabar ye." that was all i could say.

i didn't know what else to say.

but now, mama is stronger than ever. Alhamdulilah. i did accompany her for her last check up and doctor said every organ in her was at their best condition. blood was okay. no more diabetes.
ma was definitely more than HAPPY. doktor kata SEMUA SEMPURNA. yeah, that was his exact words.

mama continues doing what she loves most. cooking. yeah, she still cooks for us. she still supervises the running of the house, her business, granddaughters and her kids too. now she's busy matchmaking my cousin. and they're getting married this December. terror siot mak aku!

so, there goes the story of the world's best mama that i could ever asked for. at least you are perfect in my world,ma. never for even one sec, ive had images of you as not perfect. i'm so sorry if i've offended you in so many ways.

bukankah anak paling selalu menyakiti hati ibunya. dan bukankah ibu seharusnya orang yang paling selalu memaafkan segala kesilapan yang dilakukan oleh anaknya. your presence keeps me alive. you've sacrificed too much. and i know i will never be able to repay you. but i will always try to be the best i could be,for you, ma.

* i still go knocking my ma's room whenever i have nightmares.

happy mother's day.

i love u beyond words. you're my mother. you're my hero.

lovees

babies

2010-05-06T11:43:00.000+08:00

i always look forward to go back home after a day work. because i know there are 2 cheeky people who will always feel glad to have me back home. they are always there at the door, welcoming me home the after the moment i said "asalammualaikummmmm"..

Zuleyka Aamal : haiiiiiiiiiiiii......ti....ti.....*wide smile on the face*.

Kaela Iman : mak titiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!! HEHEHEHEHEHEH....*running towards me leaving behind her little sister*.

bliss.

i'm always glad to be home.

just imagine if i've kids of my own. lagi bliss kan? hehe. one day....insyaAllah. Aminn :)

lovees.

please return

2010-05-05T12:22:00.000+08:00

i am ignorant. sometimes. well, most of the times. and in fact, i can be so ignorant, i don't realise that i have that stuff or this stuff or that dress or this handbag. why?

because i've lent them to those people and those people have never returned those stuffs to me. especially my annoying sister. she is 30. married (no children yet). live in a huge place. with her kind of salary, she can buy almost everything (that she wants). yet, every weekend, without fail, she'll go through my entire wardrobe, and my handbag stand. and simply....yes, simply takes whatever it is she likes without asking me and never to return it. unless i pester her and scold her or tell my brother in law that she took my things and tak pulang-pulang.

bahasa malaysia :

aku pelik la. macam dia langsung tak pernah nampak barang-barang tu. macam peghak gila. patutlah baju dengan beg aku makin lama makin sikit. rupanya ada dalam almari dia. kalau almari dia kat bilik sebelah takpe, ni dekat ampang. gila jauh. bukannya aku selalu pergi rumah dia. sakitnya hati.

kalau nak cakap pasal reminders, hmmmmm dah banyak kali. sms, call, face to face. tak jugak kasi balik. nak kena bagi letter of demand ke, kakak oi. umur je 30 tapi perangai macam budak2. sampai facial mask pun dia pinjam. itu pun tak pulang2 jugak. apa ke hal tu?

lagi sakit hati bila aku mengadu kat mak aku (pasal kes facial mask tu). tau mak aku kata apa? "takpelah, dia banyak nak bayar. duit kereta seribu tiap-tiap bulan."

kalau kau jadi aku, apa kau rasa.

lepas tu aku jawab balik. "habis kerete titi tu pakai air ke, ma?" terdiam orang tua tu.

mak aku ni, kalau aku mengadu pasal adik-beradik aku, mesti dia menangkan orang yang diadu tu. aku jugak kena mengalah. apa, muka aku ni memang ada tertulis "MUKA PENGALAH. AKU MEMANG SELALU KALAH. SO, TAKPE. CARIK LA GADUH DENGAN AKU. AKU MEMANG AKAN KASI DIRI AKU KALAH." camtu? kalau aku ni anak sulung takpelah. memang position anak sulung kena mengalah banyak dengan adik2. ni dengan anak sulung pun, aku yang kena mengalah, apa kes?

sebab aku selalu kalah la aku tak layak jadi lawyer. sebab nanti asyik kalah kes. sebabnya, aku suka mengalah.

mak aku pulak tak boleh jadi judge. dia bias.

ok, dah merepek panjang lebar ni. pendek kata, ini lah luahan sakit hati anak no 4 keluarga zaharifudin dan naterah. nasib baik aku geng dengan adik aku no 5 tu. dia tak banyak cari pasal dengan aku. yang selalu carik pasal yang no 3 ni lah. peminjam barang tanpa dipulang. aaaaaaa....tension k. kalau macam ni la halnya, aku selalu kena buat inventori barang-barang sendiri. nak ingat balik apa barang yang aku dah kasi pinjam kepada orang2 berkenaan. lepas tu kena buat list, letak tarikh dipinjam dan tarikh harus dipulang balik. macam buku-buku kat perpustakaan. aku rasa, aku kena buat macam tu la.

supaya, bila aku nak pakai barang tu, takde la aku terkial-kial selongkar satu bilik lepas tu maki sana, maki sini barang tu hilang. padahal ada orang pinjam, tak pulang-pulang.

lovees, making inventories.

p.s : sometimes i am guilty of such behaviour too. there are books i've yet to return to nani. nani, sorry! nanti i pulangkan balik. love ya. hihihihihih

change is good

2010-05-04T16:51:00.000+08:00

i don't wanna write my continued post of beach retreat. terasa malas pulak. huhu

anyhow, i've decided to change my template since the old one has been bugging my eyes quite sometime. been meaning to change it but had no time to do so. *alasan*

on the other hand, i miss my best friends. i haven't met them for quite a long time, now. especially NANI who has been busy since God knows when. And Yi Vonn too. She's only free when the rest are not. And Nat, she still had not announced to us when is her big day. I can't wait for that.

miss, miss my besties.

lovees,
planning another round of bridal shower and hen's night ;))))))))

can't wait, can't wait

2010-04-21T10:52:00.000+08:00

ooooh, my trip to the beach is this weekend and i'm so excited! but at the same time im scared to leave my parents home alone. eh, macam terbalik. hehe. after the incident with my mom, i sort of became paranoid. but hopefully, nothing'll happen. InsyaAllah.

ive yet to pack my stuff (always have to pack early since im so indecisive bout my stuffs). we haven't got our itenaries yet, hence the indecisiveness. but most importantly, i'm never going there without a good book for me to read by the beach and daydreaming and drooling and salivating of robert pattinson being there while drinking coconut drink.

yea, i know i'm soooooo yesterday. baru sekarang nak drooling over rpatz. but h'e sooo adorable and charming. i love his british accent, ooh so sexy. feels like i'm a school kid again. haha. adake patut this friend of mine kata, edward cullen minum air kelapa lepas tu tercekik and then mati.
siot betul. ruining my angan-angan je. ;(

anyways,

this 25th also marks one year of my anniversary as his official gf. i know the ticker there says we're 2 but that's unofficial counting. it took us 1 year to go out and finally make up our minds that we're both just so right for each other. i'm sad, that i can't be there on that day, but plan to celebrate it after that.

2 years has passed. this is my longest realtionship so far. so *pat my own back* hehe. plan for celebration have yet to be decided. but i'm sure it's gonna be a funn one. alright. enough updating, so far. back to work now.

lovees, dreaming of rpatz.

school

2010-04-15T12:03:00.000+08:00

when i was driving to work this morning, i suddenly remembered those times when i was 15/From 3. PMR was the scariest experience i had to endure, since just before the examination, i was sick and had to lie down all the time. i was sick for the whole week just before PMR. Hence, the not so good result (at least to me).

anyways, i also remembered that i had this online scandal with this boy. mind you, at that time, chatting was the in-thing. i remembered i used to go to cc every weekend with my best friend and her sister just so we could chat online. so, the boy i was having scandal with was from nebraska,us. and i was really excited since it was my very first scandal in my entire 15 years of life.

he kinda 'proposed' to me and me, being a sucker for mat salleh, agreed just immediately. gila malu nak cerita. but what the heck. i was naive. hehe. back then, i don't really fancy malay guys. just looking at the boys in my school that time, turned me off. haha. like i was so good.

i was being so dreammmmyyy of this boy (whom i forgot what his name was). he's so damn charming. but unfortunately, the scandal didn't last long. we lost contact and i've never heard from him since. but i remembered i've emailed him once and i got a reply but it was from his MOTHER! whattheheck. haha. his mother introduce herself as his mother, duhh and said, his son is busy with school activities and all and has no time to reply to my emails. and i replied back, "sorry for disturbing ur son. do take care and send my regards to him."

i once thought that it was him but i couldn't be bothered to ask. i mean it could be him sending me the email right. i know i couldn't tell. hmmph.

that was the end. i was crushed, shocked and sad. i felt as if i have just been dumped by him. damn. haha. pathetic betul aku ni. but i regained my strength and life went back to normal again.
i've never told anybody about this for being too embarrased about this particular scandal (that i'm definitely not proud of). it was just pathetic! hahaha. i couldn't help laughing all the way to work just reminiscing this. but now, im telling the whole wide world. hahah. :P

well, that was me. i guess im destined not to marry a mat salleh. haha. gila! but im extremely happy with this one that i'm settling with.

alright, enough reminiscing.

lovees back to reality.

random ep3

2010-04-14T13:48:00.000+08:00

i'm here in my office just finished watching glee ep13. hah, katam all 13 episodes in 2 days. yess! glee is so refreshing and entertaining. but i really, really don't like rachel. she's soooooo damn irritating!

anyways, the reason why im watching glee is because the internet at my office is down so i can't really do much work since i depend so much on the internet (blogging boleh pulak?) hahaha, kerja court pun depend on internet. court dah advance sekarang! hee.

hence, i have to go somewhere with wifi or anything just to get my work done after my office hour. buang masa betul. serious, buang masa dan duit.

on the other hand, i'm hesitating to buy this clincher. it's so damn nice and pretty but i have to save money for my tioman trip (for beach wear, that is). hehe, who says u can't be all glamed up at the beach, right? :P

it's my 2nd trip of cuti-cuti Malaysia this year. And will always look forward for another round of cuti-cuti Malaysia. :) My aim is to finish touring all the beautiful places in Malaysia, then baru pergi overseas for vacay! Amin, insyaAllah.

well, i've got to go. daa!

lovees all glee-d up! (as per what nani said). ;) i like!

drama-ramas-mamas

2010-04-12T11:11:00.000+08:00

yeah. for three weekends in a row, that's what i was experiencing. hate it, hate it, hate it. who likes dramas right? except for those yang ada kat tv tu, okla kot. well, not all the time. sometimes.

we went to watch date night last saturday. i think i've fallen in love with cotton on. i don't know how many pieces of clothes i bought from cotton on. but i just love them. love, love, love. ok, back to date night. the storyline is quite predictable. but i love the movie because it's a compilation of tina fey and steve carrell. Funny, funny, funny.

But seriously, it's an interesting movie about relationship. Just like the one Jennifer Aniston acted with Vince Vaughn. But only this one, it's fully loaded with hilarious scenes. Promote* promote*.

ok, my head can't really think straight nowadays. especially this week since judges' conference is this thursday. and boy, it's all about stats and KPIs. everybody is rushing for stats, numbers and bla bla bla.

but thank God, it's about to end soon. Yippie. And after that, hehehe, watch out Tioman! Yikes!

By the way, my 2nd anniversary is around the corner! yeay! but due to insufficient funds and pockets, wallet and purse and etc, we decided to postpone our celebration till the next pay day. Sad :(

But it's ok. Once he got his salary, siap baik. Aku kikis duit kau! ehehehehe, takdelah joking je. hehehehehe.

Oklah, back to stats. Lovees on stats.

p.s : sorry for the low quality picture up there. technical error, it is.

random episode 2

2010-04-01T11:37:00.000+08:00

saya ada satu inkuiri.

saya ada seorang kenalan. boleh dikatakan agak rapat dan lebih tua daripada saya. kenalan saya seorang perempuan, telah berkahwin dan tiada anak.

saya mengikuti perkembangan kenalan saya ini sejak dari dulu lagi dan saya tahu tentang sejarah percintaannya dari zaman sekolah sehinggalah dia berkahwin.

Memang kenalan saya ada episod di mana dia telah curang terhadap teman lelakinya tetapi teman lelakinya menerima dia semula kerana sayang. dan mereka juga telah berkahwin, kini.

tetapi, malangnya episod curang itu berulang kembali (or so i think). bukan dengan orang yang sama tetapi dengan orang lain pula. lelaki itu adalah seorang suami dan mempunyai 3 orang anak. lelaki itu juga bekerja di tempat yang sama di mana kenalan saya bekerja.

saya tidak tahu tentang perkara ini dengan terperinci tetapi apa yang boleh saya katakan si lelaki sering kali menelefon kenalan saya dan kenalan saya juga turut melayan lelaki itu di dalam perbualan telefon mereka.

mereka akan bergayut macam remaja baru nak kenal erti cinta monyet. kenalan saya mengatakan bahawa dia tidak ada apa-apa dengan lelaki itu tetapi bukankah dia melayan lelaki itu apabila mengangkat panggilan telefonnya? atau adakah perbualan itu sekadar borak-borak kosong dan tiada apa-apa makna?

sementelahan itu, si suami pada kenalan saya tidak tahu apa-apa tentang situasi ini.
saya tidak tahu nak buat apa kerana saya sayang kepada kenalan saya dan kalau boleh tidak mahu rumah tangganya hancur.

saya telah nasihatkannya tetapi dia masih juga berhubungan dengan suami orang itu.

apa patut saya lakukan jikalau dia tidak ingin mendengar nasihat saya?

sila beritahu komen anda :)

random

2010-03-30T11:16:00.000+08:00

i was happily looking at the ticker of how long we have been together. (tycoon, please don't bore yourself with my jiwang post of me and my beloved bf).

it put a smile on my face.

just with a blink of an eye, we have been together for almost 2 years. but things are just so wonderful for us. and stronger too. Alhamdulilah. I would be lying if i say we have never argued or get involved in a fight. sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit apalagi relationship kan?

but i can say that this has been the best relationship so far. and he is the best amongt the best. i am happy (hence, the weght gain).

moving on, i've just finished hearing cases. that explains why i have so much time and i can even blog. it's interesting when i get to do case management because i have zero knowledge of what case management is all about back then in uni. my lecturer so conveniently skipped that chapter because we were running out of time. but now all i can say is case management is so simple and interesting and when i do it everyday, it's like all is at my finger tips *berlagak,berlagak* :p

come to think of it, when i put my civil knowledge in practice, it is not that hard as what i have always thought it would be. it is also interesting in fact.

but as what i've mentioned in my interview just recently, i told the higher-up that an opportunity to do criminal is what i'm looking forward too. i fell in love with criminal first before i fell in love with civil back then in uni. :)

anyways,

April is just a few more days away and im pretty much excited because i have a project to be executed in April and hopefully it'll turn out just as what i've always wanted. Amin ;)

ps : no it's not me getting engaged or getting married or getting faisal to come to my house for merisik. it's something else ;)

lovees excitedly waiting for April.

lovees is back yaww!

2010-03-29T16:40:00.000+08:00

hellow,

i'm back and has recovered from terrible food poisoning (but today, i'm down with flu). but it's okay.

anyways, have not been blogging for quite some time due to the hecticness. but no fret, the hecticness is quite over *cross fingers* and am ready to blog as normal again.

well, my lady boss' birthday is today and she treated us for lunch. thank you for that. jimat,jimat :)alhamdulilah

anyways, have to go now for cutting cake for the lady boss.

till the next post yaww!

lovees looking for delicious cake!

work and more work

2010-03-02T15:40:00.000+08:00

oh my god, work is just crazy nowadays. i can't even update my blog properly. i want to swim. but today, i forgot to bring my spectacles. great just great.

until the next post (again).

lovees getting back to battle field and crazy lawyers.

Testing 1,2,3

2010-02-25T11:17:00.001+08:00

This is only a test. What kind of test, you don't have to know. So, till the next post.

Lovees signing out

i'm back!

2010-02-24T19:00:00.000+08:00

heylow lovelies!

Am back from the long exciting break i had just last week. But too bad, now i'm swamped with loadsa work. Can't wait to settle all the work. So, i can't really post a long entry this time. This is going to be a short one. Hehe. So, till the next post :)

Lovees

break

2010-02-12T11:47:00.000+08:00

bukan break-up tapi rehat.

hehe.

lovees is taking the week off, next week. so many things to do. pay off bills, send the car for regular service, go out and ronggeng and sleep to death. haha.

so, would like to take this opportunity to wish all chinese and malaysians (macamlah satu malaysia baca blog i) happy chinese new year!

mwaaaa ;)

weekends updates ( i reckon this post is going to be the longest)

2010-02-01T10:32:00.000+08:00

last 2 weekends (mak ai, rewind sampai last 2 weekends tuuu.. ok takpe), i stayed home like a good girl since the bf and best friends were not around. but i don't mind really because i had a lot of house chores to do. so i kinda took a break from socializing.

and last weekend, my oh my, i was only at home for my beauty sleep. which means i was out the whole day for both saturday and sunday. it started off with friday night.

friday night :
had lepakking sessions with my best friend nani, yi vonn + bf, me + bf. had a lotta fun since haven't met up with them for a long time. seriously can't forget the 'ayam' moment. ok, ceritanya macam ni. nani was assigned to go to brunei to audit bank islam there. she's staying at some hotel. and she told me that the hotel is in red zone area since there's a lot of ayam.

nani : korang tau tak my hotel tu is in red zone sebab banyak ayam.

titi : hahahahahahahahah *imagining chickens lalu lintas depan,dalam and belakang hotel*

fn : eh, kat brunei ada ayam ke?

titi : hello, macam mana orang brunei nak makan ayam kalau takde ayam kat sana???

nani n fn : hahahahaHAHAHAHAHhahahahHhahahahahahaha *in unison*

titi : nape? nape? nape? asal korang gelak??

nani : yang, ni 'ayam' as in prostitutes not ayam yang u makan tuuu..

titi : owh yeke?? hahahaha...

fn : tu lah...tak pasal-pasal i kena "HELLOOOWWW" dengan you...

titi : sorry yang...my bad..

hehehehehe...i pun tak tau apa dalam kepala masa tu. i mean, i'm not that innocent! ;))

saturday : (where the more funner* started)
got up not as early but oklah since we were going to celebrate sherry's long due birthday celebration. sherry pun is now tunangan orang. macam zaza. tinggal i and nurul je single. hehe. we had lunch at the gardens, curve and gila panas kay haritu. and i was wearing my long cardigan. nasib white colour. the lunch was fun. and i gila rindu zaza, nurul and sherry sebab agak lama tak jumpa.

after we had lunch, zaza, nurul and i continued our session at ou. she had to go pay her bills while i...wanted to continue with my shopping spree at Cotton On. so, i did my purchase then we continued our search. tak taulah search apa...

went to c&k ...

went to coach...and that's where 'fifty' happened to me.

hehehe, the rest is history.

but i know me, zaza and nurul had really great time and really,really looking forward for our next outings.

sunday *nervous-nervous*:
got up again, not as early. mengemas and helped around at the kitchen until it was midday and had to get ready for kenduri doa selamat at bf's house. nervous gila since im going to meet his family. not immediate family but his extended family. takuutttt gila...

i was kinda down because i could not participate with the yassin recital since it was my red flag day.

after the recitals ended then, his mother called my name.

fmil *hehehehe* : saraa, meh sini meh...aunty nak kenalkan dengan keluarga aunty..

i pun dtg tergedek-gedek..

fmil : haa, ni adik aunty paling bongsu, maksu. ni mak lang, pak lang, haa...ni opah...aunty punya mak.

i pun salam-salam semua. opah was the cutest amongst all. rasa nak peluk-peluk dia. sebab, selalu dengar orang cakap "opah aku bla,bla,bla".

now i have my own opah already. chewah..

nervous sangat. but the most important thing, i was being myself. and behaved. hahahaha

but i had to go off early. ;(

promised mama would take her to bangsar to see my grandmother. she's here! yeay!

then, balik subang off to bangsar pulak..penaatt..

so basically, minggu lepas i macam lipas kudung ke sana-ke sini tak sudah-sudah. now i'm tired sebab insufficient rest.

but it was a good weekend.

lovees smiling from east to west ;)

ps: saja bold some words and sentences because i reckon they should be highlighted. :)

Of heartache

2010-01-21T11:19:00.000+08:00

right.

i'm so angry with her. i've given her so many chances for her to change her attitude (ie not being forgetful all the time, blur, for being a procrastinator and what not). she's missing a lot of things in life because of this. who's going to heal my heartache, frustration and disappoinment?

i've given her a lot of reminder, warnings, (including alarms) and etc, still she is the same old person i used to know. for god sake, please change!

because of her, i missed the flight to bandung and the whole trip. thanks to her! thanks to her for *forgetting* to fill up the form for permohonan ke luar negara. and i've to cancel the whole trip.

*****

yeah, thank you sara zuriati! thank you very much. keep on doing this and you'll go nowhere (literally).

lovees in angry mode......to herself*

updates

2010-01-14T14:52:00.000+08:00

Semenjak masuk tahun baru ni, i tak pernah beritahu atau dalam perkataan lain, disclose samada resolutions tahunsudah sudah tercapai atau belum.

Masalahnya, i pun tak ingat apa resolution i...

anyways, i've got new resolutions for 2010. but am not going to tell. maluu ;P

been attending weddings here and there.

so, first wedding i attended was doktor syazwani and doktor uzair's wedding aka my boss' daughter. had to usher all those vvips and vips. it was a very beautiful and grand wedding. and very protocol too. the food was awesome, the decoration was sweet and beautiful too. overall, it was indeed a beautiful wedding.

and 2 nights after that, went to nadira's and zack's wedding (bride's reception) at dpf. same place as the previous wedding i attended. it was indeed the wedding of the year. and no oneeee can challenge since she invited anuar zain to perform at the wedding. aaaaaaaaaaaa...i know...it was also beautiful, happy for both of them since the bride used to be my classmate in school and batchmate in uni. while the groom is also my classmate in uni.

depan, belakang, kiri, kanan orang kahwin. tak terasa ke nak kahwin, calon pun dah ada...someone asked me.

nak buat macam mana seru tak sampai lagi...hehehehehe...but one thing for sure, i will always pray to Allah SWT that my jodoh will always be with him and no one else kerana dia :-

i) Pelengkap jiwa dan raga saya (boleh jadi best friend, boy friend, confidante and sooooooo husband material,you!)
ii) hemsem (di hati dan dunia saya)
iii) strict on me (bila saya mengada dan buat perangai)
iv) caring (kalau saya takde duit nak makan, dia yang cuak takut gf pengsan sbb skip makan)
v) romantic (kerana saya tak pernah bukak pintu kereta sendiri)
vi) penyayang (hari-hari cakap dia sayang saya awwwwww...)
vii) pandai (selalu ajar saya tentang banyak perkara. selain drpd itu, selalu bagi ceramah dan ajaran yang sepatutnya)
viii) baran (tetapi bertempat dan cepat cool,ehehe....)
x) pandai ambil hati mak bapak dan keluarga saya (mak saya suka kat dia ;p)
xi) terakhir sekali dia menerima saya seadanya, baik dan buruk (walaupun saya makin lama,makin lebar, dia tak pernah complaint tentang berat badan saya, bila saya buat perangai, dia sangat sabar, dan etc...)

so, itulah antara sebab saya memohon ke Hadrat Ilahi semoga dia lah jodoh saya. banyak lagi sebab sebenarnya tapi sebab dah tak tahu macam mana nak type roman numerals tu. ehehehe...peace!!!

Good conversation ;)

2010-01-07T16:00:00.000+08:00

i know i seldom talk about this person and yesterday, suddenly i remembered her existence. this particular person whom i've known since i was 10 had been a dear friend to me during our schooling days. the person i spent my time with (a lot), i confide to (about my problems, when there was no one else but her), i had fun with (yeah, we dreamt that we were some pop-star groupie), and etc.

but somewhere along the road (kononnya persahabatan ini akan kekal sehingga akhirat), we grew apart. she went to different uni. so that's the reason why behind this 'growing apart' moments. but we do still keep in touch now and then.

yesterday, i was browsing my friendster's page and saw her name there. so, i decided to take a peep on her page. nothing new. no updates or whatsoever. then, i decided to log out.

last night, as i just got back from work, i took my other phone and looked at it. saw a missed call and it was her. what are the odds right? i mean she had never called me for a really long time. maybe around 2 years i guess.

i returned her call. we talked and yeah, i've to admit. i miss her. really miss her. no matter how long we have not talked to each other but it was just like yesterday i'd talked to her. like during our school days, geddit? ok...

we were busy updating about each other and the only question that i will ask her again and again is "u dah ada bf ke?" (besides soalan "berapa berat u sekarang?") and her answer will always be "mana ada. sape nak kat i".

but to my surprise, last night her answer was a different one. she answered my question with her laughter. i started screaming (literally) on the phone. i can't believe it. and to make matters worst, she said that the guy wanted to get married in June.

I asked, "which year?" macam bodoh jugak la soalan tu.

She answered, "this year la, doink".

I screamed again.

I couldn't believe it. But whatever it is, i'm happy for her. Cuma i was surprised je. But she said that the date is yet to be confirmed, it could be the end of the year. So me, being the good friend offered help if the wedding is confirmed. and she was definitely more than happy when i offered help.

hah, my best friend. getting married with a kelantanese guy. tu la, dulu kata tak nak lelaki kelantan, tak nak lelaki makan cili (because dia tak makan pedas, tak nak lelaki makan budu, euww and this and that la. sekali.....

AMIK KAU.

like a total slap in the face. haha.

i'm happy for you dear.

lovees in good old days mode*

Mama

2010-01-04T15:51:00.000+08:00

I was blog-hopping and suddenly i stumbled to this person's blog. I know her. She just lost her mom. I read her blog from previous entries when she had written about her mother's battle through the sickness. I felt tears were swelling up in my eyes. I know how she feels (partly) because my mom is battling through her sickness too.

She lost her mother and but I have not. Syukur Alhamdulilah that my mother is getting stronger and healthier day by day. As what Kak Long has written in her card when mama got sick. "You are indeed a fighter". That's what she is.

FYI, my mom is suffering from stroke. And the effect is that her left part of the body is paralized. I thank Allah that after 2 years, she is now getting stronger ie. she can walk, she can talk and she can even bake and cook with only her right part of the body. Some strokee (that's the term used amongst stroke patients) could not even get up from bed after 30 years suffering from stroke. I've seen it with my own 2 eyes. It was sad.

Since then, my mom has been religiously attending her therapy sessions at NASAM (that's a center for physiotherapy for strokees). Everyday without fail. I've seen her during these sessions and boy, I know it was hard for her. It was difficult for her to move with that kind of condition. They make her climb up the stairs non-stop, roll on the ground, walk like normal people do, doing multiples of exercises to the weak hand. It wasn't easy I tell you. Some have tried to do it for years and years but they just couldn't.

But Alhamdulilah my mom has a very strong spirit and she managed to do it in just a matter of time. I'm proud of my mama. (She was even featured in newspapers several times, given talks to other strokees in hospitals and NASAM, inspired others to be as hardworking as she is and was even asked to come for a tv interview but she refused. She said she doesn't want her ex-colleagues to see her in that condition. Poor Mama!

Whatever it is, I can't stop thanking Allah for giving her the health. And most importantly, she is still here with me.

I love you Mama. You know I love you so much.

P.s : Happy New Year everyone!

alhamdulilah

2009-12-23T11:20:00.000+08:00

abang saya telah selamat diijabkabulkan dan bersanding pada weekend yang lepas. legaa ;)
so abang saya dah ada isteri dan mak bapak saya tambah menantu sorang lagi dan saya pun ada kakak ipar sorang lagi. seronok ;)) syukur di atas pertambahan ahli keluarga zahari dan naterah ni. makin meriah dan riuh rendah lah jawabnya.

so macam biasa la, semua orang dok sibuk menanya pada mak dan bapak saya bilakah turn saya pula. saya hanya mampu tersenyum kerana sememangnya jawapannya adalah.....lambat lagi! hehe ;) bukan apa, mental dan fizikal saya masih belum bersedia lagi untuk itu. jadi adalah penting bagi saya mengambil masa bagi memastikan diri ini bersedia untuk menjadi isteri orang specifically isteri si dia yang baru pulang dari bangkok tewww *.

saya amat gembira sekali kerana dapat berjumpa sanak-saudara yang hanya dapat berjumpa sekali-sekala. baru ku sedar bahawa keluarga ku memang besar. yang datang pun baru dua pupu. belum masuk 3, 4 dan 5 pupu lagi (kalau ada lah). hehehe.

yang penting, semua dah selesai dengan selamatnya dan akhir kata saya amat gembira sekali. tak sabar nak meraikan perkahwinan sepupu-sepapat ku yang lain pada tahun hadapan pula.

with much love,

lovees

jahat

2009-12-17T12:23:00.000+08:00

that's what i wannabe today. boleh?

heheheheheh *evil grin*

yeah!!!!

no specific title

2009-12-16T11:44:00.000+08:00

so, last friday night me and him went to watch......"my-spy"??!!!

yeah, i know.

someone told me that movie was supposed to be a good one because it was directed by afdlin shauki but honestly speaking, it was a disappointment. more to like 'trying so hard to be funny'.
but, it's okay. movie melayu, expect the expected, bukannya expect the unexpected kan?

and before that, i went to see his mom for the first time. alhamdulilah, everything went well. i was being myself and glad to hear from him that his mom likes me. :)))

on saturday was his long call. im so proud of him. been doing something that was just not his cup of tea for so long and managed to end it succesfully. i admire his will and spirit. his family was there and so were his friends. it was a joyous day and indeed a day to be celebrated.

that night, we went to watch natrah and boy, the play really touched my heart. we lost her. we lost her in the battle. that was a really tragic battle. people died during the battle. i can't believe that the story was actually real. i mean, i learnt the case before but didn't imagine that it was actually that tragic.

hhhhhmmmm......*teringat balik the play*......

so, on sunday nothing was planned but suddenly mama asked me to go and fetch nenek at melaka. so off i went to melaka with him. penattttt drive and so took emergency leave the next day.

okay, i still don't know whether im supposed to take leave or not tomorrow since the wedding is this weekend. so many things to do actually like tagging and preparing the door gifts, gifts for perenjis-perenjis and most importantly, kemas rumaaaahhhh! penaaaaaaatttttt!

but hey, i love cleaning.

so okay, lovees signing out.

keep the love going babyyyy

p.s he's leaving for bangkok for 4 days. i'll be a dead piece of meat (literally) when he's back.

Fantastic!

2009-12-08T12:06:00.000+08:00

Last weekend was the bomb!

Started off with Tikah's hen night/dinner at Alexis, Bangsar, last Friday night. I'm totally, madly,deeply in love with the pav lovaaaaaaaa. Had a really great time with the girls as it's been a while since we last saw each other. To Tikah and Midi, congratulations that you guys are finally hitched. Selamat menempuhi hari-hari bahagia bersama. I'm so happy for both of you. I will always pray for your happiness, always. Insya Allah.

On Saturday, woke up quite early since we had wedding's rehearsal (not my wedding but along's). So far, everything is according to plan but i still have yet to find a make-up artist for myself and the other usherers. Nevermind, the most important thing, the bride must have her own make-up artist! But i think that's settled.

Then, after the rehearsal, we all went to the curve. Went to Daisho, 'the RM5 always' shop and got some things for myself there when later, he came and joined us. We brought the babies together and i can't stop laughing my heads off seeing aamal gets so restless in her stroller. Iman was soooo excited nak bawak adik dia jalan-jalan dengan stroller. Haish, macam2 la...

After that, me and him decided to go to KL and just hang out. But, damn KL was that packed. So we decided to head back home.

The next day, got up really early to attend my colleague's wedding ceremony at some temple in klang. That was my first time attending a hindu's wedding ceremony and it was very interesting and fascinating. He also came to join us. Katanya, dia pun tak sabar nak tengok hindu's wedding ceremony.

I realized that our culture is not much different. They have the pelamin, and they even have istiadat merenjis just like the Malays.

After the wedding, head to khulafah for a drink with the other colleagues and then went back home to sleep.

So, my weekend was definitely filled with fun and great activities. what about yours?

sad,sad day

2009-12-03T12:14:00.000+08:00

Because my favourite baju kurung got burnt while i was ironing it.

I love the colour and the comfortness.

Now, i have to throw it away.

But, look on the bright sight dear titi,

1 down more to come ;)))

yeay!

my closet pun makin kurang baju since i've given a away a whole bunch of baju that i've not worn for years or never been worn before.

hee ;))

tapi, nak beli baju kena pakai duit,

sekarang duit pun kurang.

macam mana nak beli?

think titi, think!

oklah,

i gotta go and do my own thinking :P

lovees,

on thinking mode.

:))))

Fed up

2009-12-01T11:51:00.001+08:00

I'm so sick and tired of having to take over somone else's problem and having to settle it. It's not my problem at the first place. Why? why?, dear sir?

And at then end of the day, if things are not smooth sailing it's me who is answerable and not you, dear sir.

I'm so tired of having to justify the situation so many times.

I've grown out of any justifications.

I'm so confused.

lovees.

Of Monday Blues

2009-11-30T11:42:00.000+08:00

Today is Monday and i'm hating it.

Anyways, i've just had my haircut in 6 months and not loving it. I hate that shop and the hairdresser and i'm regretting it. Btw, it's not the shop that i used to go.

So in conclusion,

Bad hair day + monday blues = not a happy titi :(

lovees, crying out loud ;(((

thursday

2009-11-26T11:47:00.000+08:00

woke up with a terrible sinus and headache, decided to come in late to work. well, seriously with the condition that i was in just now, i wasn't in the mood to go to work. i was planning to have something spontaneous in my head, but couldn't be executed. first because i felt bad for going in late for work and secondly, my head was spinning round and round and i couldn't even drive properly.

i drove the other car to go to work today since papa is bringing my car for service which was due a verryyyy long time ago. and the car that i drove was manual, so the more reason why i couldn't drive properly. it's been a while since i drove a manual car. alhamdulilah, i managed to get to work safely.

2 days ago, i went to subang parade to look for a piece of baju that i could wear for my brother's wedding in december. i was giving up because i didn't find anything that i looked for when suddenly i stumbled into this really small shop (even fitting room was not provided due to the size of the shop). i found the perfect top and skirt for the wedding. and seriously, the price was quite reasonable too. both cost me RM200. meaning each piece is only RM100. the reason why i said it was quite reasonable was because there were seriously some heavy beadings on the top and skirt and you will not get that kind of price anywhere in KL. after a very short moment of hesitating, i decided to buy it. u know, just to get it over with.

i went back home, showed it to mama and to my surprise she really liked the top and the skirt. hee :)) approved! yeay! the more i feel that the baju was worth buying!

alrightey, moving on to the next topic. i really hate it when i've planned to go somewhere with somebody and suddenly that somebody cancelled the whole thing at the very last minute. i just can't stand it. i mean i'll try to think of something to justify the whole 'cancelling at the very last minute thing' but sometimes, i just can't justify it any longer if that person keeps doing the same thing over and over again. i mean it didn't happen to me once or twice. man, i understand that sometimes we can't avoid/prevent this kind of things but hello...dah banyak kali kott?! sometimes i feel that cancelling the plan at the very last minute is so inconsiderate. and then, give me some lame excuses padehal i know where you wanna go. i'm quite pissed off actually.

i understand if he/she has commitments and all but please don't give me that bullshits, i also have the same thing that you have. so does everybody else. next time, tak nak buat plan dengan awak kalau awak selalu buat macam ni.

i think it's the effect of the medicine that i took just now that caused me to be this angry. heeee :))

anyways, i'm switching mode now from angry titi to a happy titi. bosses not around so, apa lagi?? hee :))))

by the way, i plan to cut and re-style my hair again. it's out of control and i'm starting to feel rimas. no major re-styling, just trimming and adding body to the hair. but the shop that i normally go is closed. that was the shop that i went to for my 'victoria beckham' hairstyle once upon a time ago. i was totally in love with the hairstyle but makin lama makin malas nak maintain. so i just let my hair grow eversince. and tadaaaa, hutan belantara di atas kepala :))

i loved megan fox's hair in jennifer's body. but i know i can't have that kind of hairstyle. my hair is too straight and if i perm or curl it, i'll become straight again in a matter of seconds. haha.

hopefully i can get my hair chopped off by today. sebab baru hari ini rasa macam nak potong rambut sebab rimas. maybe because of the headache. ciao.

lovees signing out.

sempena raya haji :))

2009-11-25T10:46:00.000+08:00

Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you...

although i don't have any enemies (kot?) but this phrase did surely caught my eyes.

courtesy of some random friend from facebook.

A blast from the past :)

2009-11-24T14:54:00.000+08:00

Had really great time with the girls last night. That was a reunion after a long time of never seeing each other. I mean i always get to see nani and yi vonn, but itupun dah lama tak jumpa. i guess everyone is caught up with their own things like work and stuffs.

Nat is back for 3 weeks and she's going back to Miri this Sunday. and she broke the good news about her and nor and i'm sooo excited for both of them. my best friend is getting married next year!

damn, why is everyone getting married next year. i have a list of people comprising of family and friends who are getting married next year. hee :)

i really miss spending some quality time with them. we used to do that during our uni days especially during semester break sampai muak tengok muka each other. but now, it's the thing that i really miss the most.

as of now, im blogging because im trying to get my mind out of something, tengah susah hati ni. ok, why do i need to justify myself for blogging? hope the honourable is ok with the slight change of plan. it's beyond my control anyways.

toodles, lovees.

where are my little angels?

2009-11-19T11:31:00.000+08:00

i miss them so much.

although i've only not seen them for 1 day. terus rindu.

i treat them like as though they are mine too. as you all know, they are my precious.

i bathe them, i feed them milk (not breast feeding larr), clean them from their stinky poo (although seldomly) , i play with them, make them go to sleep, scold them (if they are naughty), teach them how to play the piano (hence, the profile pic in my fb), everyday i see them and when they go back home, i always miss them (although i'm gonna see them the next morning) haa.

budak-budak memang penenang jiwa. whenever i feel all stressed out from work or anything, mesti rasa relieved after seeing their faces.

whenever i go back home from work, iman will always get the door opened for me and says "mak titi!!!!". i kinda think iman is obssessed with me coz wherever i go she must follow. when i go up, she'll come to my room, panjat katil then duduk tepi i. then she'll ask "mak titi buat apa tewww?" in the most manja tone.

when i come down, she'll come down too. when i wanna go somewhere, she wants to follow. when i sing, she sings too. when i play with aamal, dia jeling!! jealous!

and my sweet baby aamal who knows how to play cak-cak already. so cute. she loves to eat so much. whatever we eat, she must have it too or not she'll go crazyyyy. i think now she's learning how to walk and speak at the same time. hehe, i just adore my aamal perut buncit.

im so obssessed with them. i talk about them a lot. i 'll think about them everyday. i love them so much.

lovees loves iman and aamal dearly.

terkejut !

2009-11-13T11:25:00.001+08:00

a little detail about my birthday celebration:-

my birthday was on the 8/11 (sunday) and i was not expecting for some grande celebration since i wasn't in the mood for any celebration. had a terrible fight with him on saturday since he had the guts to ask me "u rasa u nak pergi mana?"

of course i was mad, of course i was disappointed. takkan aku sendiri nak plan for my own DAMN birthday plan. but at last, we both decided to have a simple dinner for 2 anywhere in kl.

he fetched me at my place at 8 pm and off we go to solaris. i wasn't that excited punn. moddy memanjang. mamat tu mesti rasa nak bagi sedas penampar kat muka i. :)

then, he said 'let's go and try schokolart.

namapun dah macam sedapp gila.

as we entered the restaurant, i saw some familiar faces. zaza, hash, nurul, sherry and her dearest, rory. i thought ' eh, diorang ada event kat sini jugak ke?' laa, rupa-rupanya it was sorta a surprise for me. sweettt :))

tak sangka k. siap gaduh lagi. nasib tak nangis. so, anyways, there's yummy drinks, food, birthday cake and prezzies! yeay. hehe.

so terkejut lah daku di situ. i once surprised him for his birthday. told him wanted to go to subway je since i have free coupons! hahaha...but i've arranged for something else actually.

oklah tu. dia terkejut, i pun terkejut so sama-samalah terkejut!

Tired :(

2009-11-02T12:23:00.000+08:00

Last friday, went back from work and then got ready for a little celebration for zaza's birthday. i know it's long overdue but we all had fun. Booked a place at this cafe at solaris and the food was really nice. i love their lemon grass chicken with butter rice, steak and their ice coffee caramel blended. nyummmm...

we talked and talked until it was already 11.30pm. but it was fun!! heee..

on saturday, i didn't go anywhere since the queen bee instructed me to stay at home and help around since we were having family meeting for my brother's wedding. when there's meeting, there's foooood. yeay. we prepared some mee goreng, nasi goreng cina, kuih-muih (macam biasa) and the special menu for that night was our very own home made satay (made by my dad). sedaaaaaaaap gile! kalah satay kajang! it was our first attempt of trying the recipe he got from his cousin. 3 hari 3 malam perap satay ayam tuuuu..but it was the bomb. so, worth the wait la kan?

so during the meeting, we appointed ahli jawantankuasa like the floor manager, assistant floor manager, yada yada yadaaaaa. since i'm not gonna be any bridesmaid or flower girl or whatever (legaaa) i'm supposed to give a short and sweet speech on behalf of my family. lagi sekali...takpe, takpe.

and bad news. im not gonna wear the kebaya that i made in jakarta for my brother's wedding sebab seksi sangat. huhu. so maybe, i'm gonna buy a ready made baju kurung je. malas nak lip lap lip lap. haha. bad news for meeeee :((( keluar lagi duit :(((

and on sunday, went out to go to ou with dearest to look for my birthday gift. i wanted this shoes at c & k for a long time but they don't have the colour in my size. and later on, went to m & s, and i found the perfect shoes but it was a little bit over his budget. so, tak amik lah.

i'm soooo not looking forward for my birthday. i don't know why. just not up for it. so, kalau takde hadiah pun takpe :::)))) ish, mcm alien pulak smiley face ni..

till the next post :)

toodles,

lovees.

bangun lambat :)))

2009-10-30T16:05:00.000+08:00

ye,ye esok boleh bangun lambat. it's the 'wave the red flag week' ,so that permits me to sleep in tomorrow. huhu.

so, apa khabar malaysia? hehe. i love that word. malaysia.

whenever i see that word, i see colours. yeah. i see different people from different background and race but living in harmony and peacefully.

i remember when i was a little girl, i was taken care by my neighbour. a very nice and loving indian family. my mom always tell me that everyday, celik je mata i'll ask my mom's permission "ma, nak gi rumah amma?". lepas tu terus lari gi rumah sebelah.

i pun terjerit-jerit. "amma,amma. titi ni. nak masuk!"

amma pun tergedek-gedek datang bukak pintu for me. siap berebut masuk bilik air nak mandi kat rumah diorang pulak tu. haha, tak tahu malu.

my neighbour tu actually old couple and they got like 4 girls and 3 sons. 4 aunties tu sume tak kahwin lagi and the same goes with their 2 sons.

every year during deepavali, my family mesti turun melaka to visit them. i remember during 1 of those many visits, amma (still alive) told me what actually transpired on the day she was sick (masa tu diorang jaga i lagi).

i was playing in the living room with my selendang. i saw amma lying on the couch. then i went to her. "amma, kenapa baring?" (in a cute 4 years old pelat) eheh.

amma pun berkata "amma not feeling well titi."

i pun sedih sebab amma sakit. she told me that i actually tebarkan kain selendang i kat atas lantai, tepi couch tu. amma tanya what was i doing?

then i said, "titi nak baring sini, jaga amma."

after she finished telling me that story, amma terus peluk and cium i walaupun i dah besar gajah ni!!haha. terharu kot.

they were such nice and loving family. masak and kasi i makan. tidurkan i. belikan i saree,baju tidur, bracelets. and uncle raja (one of the sons) would put me in his motorcycle's basket and round-round the neighbourhood before he went to work. i still can remember sikit-sikit. yang i tau, diorang tak pernah berkira nak jaga i. like i was part of the family.

years passed by and my family moved to ampang and then subang. sedih masa tu. every year, my mom will make sure everybody in our family is available so that we can visit them for deepavali. makanan diorang sedap sangat. lepas tu mesti bungkus murukku dalam plastik beg untuk i. katanya, bekal dalam kereta nak balik rumah. sweet kan?

yang tak tahan tu, they still have a frame yang ada gambar i berposing maut dengan skirt denim and the bracelets they gave me. hahaha. that photo ada terpampang dekat rak rumah diorang.

i miss them, so much.

to amma, thank you so much for taking care of me like i was part of your family. i can really feel the love that you and your family has for me. even until now. i love you.

barulah 1malaysia, rakan-rakan? heeee :)))

apa-apalah

2009-10-28T11:35:00.000+08:00

this week has been a little bit haywire for me. with work and some other things to settle. i hate when things got really out of hand. well, c'est la vie.

anyways, im officially broke. no more shopping for the next 10,000 years. jeah.

when will things go normal again? i don't feel normal now. so demotivated and the feeling is so unrelieved. i hope time will heal all these haywires. like yeah.

this saturday, the fam's gonna have a little meeting for my brother's wedding in december. like what? there's a wedding in december? how come im not even excited about it. there's a lot of issues about this wedding actually (especially bagi i yang suka create issue). pasal baju lah, hantaran lah, preparation yang macam tak prepare apa-apa pun dan sebagainya. malas nak fikir. but then again, why do i have to think? it's not my wedding.

i still remember when my second brother was getting married, we were all really excited since it was the first wedding in my fam. all preparation were all made by ourselves. baju je tak. hehe. but the whole prep thing was so exciting and fun. i actually loved doing the preparations.

same goes with my sister's wedding. cuma this time, it's a little bit sad. the first daughter in the fam's getting married. and the only sister i have is getting married. haha. but, again it was an exciting journey.

but, this time, i'm not even as half as excited i used to be.

let the other side do all of the preparation. habis cerita. it's their first daughter getting married so let them have all the joy.

i can't wait for my wedding. it's gonna be really different from typical Malay weddings, that i can surely guarantee. ceh, apa yang hebat pun tak taw lah. i have a theme in mind but let it be. my boyf knows about the wedding that i really,really want.

but am not gonna get married anytime soon. i'm not even ready (physically and mentally). so, until the day finally comes, lets wait shall we?

until then, toodles.

p.s i got this message from boyf "ok, sayang. i love you too. toodless, lovees."

toodless? what the %#@$%?

lovees.

Rambut?

2009-10-22T11:28:00.000+08:00

I remembered last Sunday, after the conference, I headed straight to my dear sister's crib at Setia Hills. Ooh, did I mention, the place was definitely gorgeous and beautiful. And guess who's the next door neighbour? LINDA ONN beb! Haha...Pictures are yet to be taken at this gorgeous place but tunggu, tunggu. Once i have my very own digi cam (which i will, by this weekend), jawabnya, penatlah kamera itu menangkap gambar ku yang gojes ini! (ceh, sila perahsantan sendiri).

Actually i wanna write about my hair, tapi started off at my sister's crib pulak. Ooh, it started with me entering to her gorgeous place (ok, banyak kali sgt sebut, eh type perkataan gojes). Since, lunch was not provided at the conference, i pun dengan lahapnya amik satay 6 cucuk dengan ketupat banyak gile (oh my god, bagai gunung terbina di atas pingganku) tak termasuk nasi tomato,laksa assam and kuey teow goreng (on the spot) lepas tu. Phew, i kinda gained 4 kilos that day alone. Haha.

Selepas amik makanan, i duduk di sebuah meja next to my sister's friend. Lepas tu dia tegur, "eh you set rambut you ke?". i yang tengah gelojoh melahap, terkejut dengan pertanyaan itu.

"eh, mana ada. i tak pernah set rambut. cuma 2 days ago, i pergi blow curl my hair. hehe" jawabku.

"cantiklah rambut you. so black and it looks healthy. you potong rambut dekat mana? i like the cut, layered macam your hair".

"i dah setengah tahun tak potong rambut. the last time was my friend yang belajar potong rambut tu tolong potongkan. experiment! haha".

"cantik,cantik. i suka", katanya lah.

haha, kembang semangkuk diri ku ini. hehe. so, yi vonn, ada orang suka you punya hasil kerja! keep up the good work darl!!

ramai orang tanya saya apa tips untuk menjaga rambut.

sebenarnya, saya tidaklah terlalu menjaga rambut. i don't even own a hair comb because i simply don't like to comb my hair. sometimes i leave it for days without combing it. especially when my hair dah panjang to this current length (which is yang paling panjang pernah ada).

but one thing for sure, since my scalp is oily i always make sure i wash my hair everyday. if not, gatal and oily. i can't stand.

tips: to avoid your scalp and hair to be oily (since you takde masa nak cuci rambut early in the morning) just dust over your scalp with bedak talcum. jangan curah satu botol nanti nampak rambut macam beruban pulak, tak pasal-pasal jadi nenek kebayan. lepas dah tabur sikit tu, you will notice that you hair won't look that oily anymore.

*this is based from reading magazines over the years dan bukan lah resipi turun-temurun nenek moyang i ke apa.

tips: to make sure you have healthy and black hair, it is crucial for you scalp to have enough vitamins like B5 ke apantah. orang dulu-dulu mana tau, so what they do is just to curahkan santan pekat to their scalp and lumurkan ke seluruh kepala dan rambut.

i've personally tried it before and the process is a bit messy since bau santan kan kuat? so what i did was to take the santan and pour it in a bottle yang ada kepala spray tu. alah, macam kat salun ada guna. then, you spray it all over your scalp and hair. make sure all sides kena. lepas tu, wrap your head with a towel (make sure towel yang dah lama jangan lah yang baru dan lembut macam bulu kambing biri-biri. ini adalah untuk avoid towel yang baru dan oh, so lembut tu daripada rosak dek kerana santan sebelanga). i peramkan kepala i tu dalam masa 2 jam. kasi sebati, kasi masak pastu i cuci dengan syampu yang sangat wangi untuk hilangkan bau santan yang kuat tu. plus santan macam berminyak sikit so you might have to wash your hair more than once.

tips : semasa mencuci rambut, jangan garu kulit kepala dengan kuku bagaikan kepala u ada kutu. rosak kulit kepala kita. kuku akan menyebabkan partikel-pratikel rambut kita terkoyak dan tercabut dan seterusnya activate satu sindrom dinamakan sindron kelemumur. kalau rakan-rakan nak tahu, kelemumur tu sebenarnya cebisan kulit kepala kita yang dah terkoyak. ha, kalau kita garu-garu macam nak tercabut kepala otak, maka akan timbul lagi banyak kelemumur. kan dah malu? kita harus lembut pada kulit kepala dan rambut kita, ok?

tips: after washing your hair, jangan sekali-kali you menggosok rambut you macam rambut you tu takde perasaan apabila mengeringkan rambut. perah je lebihan-lebihan air kat rambut tu. lepastu wrap rambut dengan tuala. then, sikat dengan sikat yang jarang-jarang to make sure rambut you tak terputus. maklumlah, when our hair is wet, it is more fragile compared to when it's dry. hence, we have to use sikat jarang-jarang. kalau rapat-rapat tu senang putus rambut.

tips : janganlah selalu sangat tukar kaler rambut dari merah ke purple ke hijau ke apantah. or even to use styling tools too often or even to perm or straighten or rebonding or whatever to your hair. rosak rambut. too much chemicals is DEFINITELY not healthy to scalp and hair. too much heat used to your hair pun can be damaging. i'm pretty sure rakan-rakan tau kan?

huish, panjanglah pulak entri kali ni. tak sedar i.

so, oklah. i gotta go. laparlah. till the next post. i will continue with more healthy hair tips.

toodles.

lovees.

none

2009-10-21T12:14:00.000+08:00

i need a getaway. pronto. i'm tired. to jakarta in january is way too far still. i need to go to an island with friends.

junglemates, where are you people? come, let's go to ack to our own natural habitats. we've been in the city for far too long. it's time to have fun!

massage...ah, indahnya. kalau dapat melonggarkan urat-urat yang terbelit-belit ini. owh, speaking of which. i guess not many knows that i have complications with my right hand due to the compression of the nerves in my left shoulder. i didn't know that i was having the complications until i started to realize that i was having difficulties to write (especially) with my right hand. i can't hold a pen for far too long and my right hand would turn shaky if i write too much. especially during examinations. hanya Allah yang tahu what i was feeling that time. my handwriting was so bad, i don't know whether the examiners can read it.

my parents urged me to go for a check-up, which i did. the doctor went through the x-rays and found out that vertabrae was damn straight and thus, the compression of the nerves and it affected my right hand's movement.

the doctor asked to me go for physiotherapy to cure this problem.

which,

i dah lama gila tak pergi since i'm working now.

i still can't write properly.

that's why i typed all my notes during examinations. easier and faster.

sedih betul. tak puas baca notes.

toodles,

lovees

adakah saya perasan?

2009-10-15T16:05:00.000+08:00

patutkah anda perasan apabila ada sekumpulan bebudak lelaki usah-usha anda macam tak pernah nampak seorang wanita berjalan-jalan? sekumpulan manusia yang saya rasa tidak pernah nampak manusia lain berjalan-jalan memandang anda seperti mahu makan?

whenever i'm in this kind of situation, i always ask the person next to me (be it my boyfie, best friends, or whoever lah) "ada apa-apa tak kat gigi aku ni?" or 'ada apa-apa tak kat baju aku ni?" or "adakah rambut ku menggerbang?" and etc.

we (i mean, i) always get 'panicky' when i'm in this situation. i mean, we never know. i've experienced it so many times. there was this one time, i noticed that everyone was looking and whispering behind my back, as if something's wrong. i asked my friend the above questions. "nothing..." she said. as soon as i got home, i realized that i was leaking. NO, i was not urinating. but it was the period. it was so bad. really baddddd. no wonder people were looking and whispered behind me. guess that's why i get all panicked. because of this experience.

haha.

jadi, jawapan kepada persoalannya tadi., saya tidaklah perasan cuma saya selalu terpanik secara membabi-buta. sekian, terima kasih.

toodles,

lovees.

p.s :
* tgklah daisy path saya di bawah page tu. comel tak? dah advance sikit. yang, sweet kan i? hahahaha*

Short

2009-10-09T11:00:00.000+08:00

Momsy and daddy are back. Alhamdulilah their journey back home was a safe one albeit the delay. Syukur. Feel a little relieved since they're back.

Planning to have lunch later on at Manhattan Fish Market with the other SARs. Nyumnyum. Heeee.

Things are okay as of now, but they are a lot of things going through my mind right now. Especially about work and him. But, so far, I'm handling things patiently. Hopefully, things will go smooth sailing after this.

Anyways, although I have not much to update about myself, but still I want to update. Hehe. It's my blog and who cares. Gatal kan?

Oooh, I have to do major cleaning to my room. Been ignoring the room for a while since asyik kat kitchen je (ceh, macam masak!). Nevermind, I have this weekend to do the cleaning.

Alright then, till the next post.

Lovees.

Yeay!!!

2009-10-08T16:05:00.000+08:00

Today is the day where I'm gonna put a smile on my face although it has been a (kinda) shitty day for me!

My mommy and daddy are BACK! Yeay. I miss them terribly. Gonna go to the airport to pick them up later. Hehe. Happy :))))

Anyways, I read Nadira's blog about how she and her fiancee decided to get married. So sweet. So spontaneous and sweet. I have to say that ironically I've found that her situation to be so romantic. Terus-menerus buat I dreamy. To Nadira and Zack (in case you're reading this) good luck and all the best. Semoga jodoh berkekalan sehinga ke anakcucu. Amin.

I wonder how's my proposal gonna be like. I can't even imagine myself to be in that sitation. But one thing for sure is that, I WILL definitely cry.

Moving on, got a letter today stating that I have to go for Temuduga Tapisan Keselamatan. Already??!! So fast. Hope everything will be okay.

Okay, saya selalu bertukar topik secara tiba-tiba. Next!

Saya mengantuk. Sangat. Sebab makan ubat selsema. Nak tidur tak boleh sebab excited mama and papa nak sampai kejap lagi. Hehe.

Well, despite the fact that I'm so scared being left alone at home but I've learnt a lot of things. Really. I think I can be a good housewife. Haha, perasan. Sayang (in case youre reading this) walaupun i tak boleh masak sangat, yang penting i tau basic stuffs. Then from there onwards I can guarantee you, you will never be thin. Hehe.

Till then,

Lovees <3

How time flies

2009-10-07T12:28:00.000+08:00

Lately, I've been so busy with work. I have to juggle a lot of things here. Tup tap...jam dah pukul 5 ptg. Haduih, and my work still not finished yet. Dang! Inipun curik masa to blog.

And to add in some more stress, maid not available so I have to do all house chores by myself. Yesterday, I was cleaning the kitchen. I forgot that there was some rice (few days back punya) still in the rice cooker. So I decided to clean it. As I was lifting that thing to the bakul sampah, I accidentally dropped the thing on the floor. Dan bertaburanlah maggots!!!!! Can you imagine? I screamed so loud that my neighbour was asking what's going on?

I terus berlari ke depan, called him and almost cried because terperanjat sangat. He was like "Takkanlah maggots pun hang nak takut?" and I answered "Geli!!!"

He came to my rescue actually. He came from Shah Alam (all the way) sebab nak tolong I kemas dapur itu. Then, Kak Farah balik rumah. And they both helped me to clean the kitchen. sweet kan? Both of them sangat sweet? Thank you so much Kak Farah and Sayang!

Anyways, I can't wait for my mom and dad to come home tomorrow. I miss them so much. Tak terhingga. Hehe.

Till then,

Lovees

Longg break from blogging

2009-10-05T10:27:00.000+08:00

Not done purposely but due to inability to get any internet access. Anyway, fasting month is over, and raya is here. My raya has been okay so far. My parents went for a holiday on sixth day of raya. And are coming back on the 8th. My maids ran away and the business has to be put on hold for a while. Damn those maids. I curse the day they were born.

Been busy juggling my work (with my new portfolio) and doing the chores at home. If before this, I was never made to do the chores but now, I'm responsible for it because no one else is doing it. Man, I tell you...managing the whole house by yourself is not an easy thang!

Normally, I go back at 6 (now) and then (bila dah sampai rumah), I put my bag at the chair outside the house (tak buka pintu pun lagi) start sweeping the dead leaves so that rumah tak nampak mcm kena tinggal. Siram pokok bunga (mcm tak pernah habis2). Dah nak pukul 7, masuk. Kalau ada jemuran, angkat. Then lipat baju sambil tgk E!. Lepas tu makan. Kemas dapur. Then tidur. Jangan cakap lah kalau nak cuci baju. Cuci pakai tangan beb! Menggeletar tangan perah kain and all the baju-baju. But it's a good experience or training I must say.

I so feel like a housewife. It is soooo tiring.

Can't wait for my parents to come home. I totally miss them. Been sleeping in their room all this while.

Wednesday

2009-08-19T09:43:00.000+08:00

the only song that is on my mind right now is happy by mocca.

i wanna feel happy but this very morning i was swamped with everything. tertekan aku.

im going to mrcb. and yes, im the only one who's gonna go there first. starting on next monday. sedih sangat nak tinggal my beloved colleagues here. i've been through so many things here. fit, kak liza, kak naz, kak husna, kak diana, diot, sarah, pracha, and everyone...thank you for everything!

macamlah tak jumpa lagi, padahal mrcb tu sekangkang kera je kott!!

i've to settle a lot of administrative things. damn. this little-little things that's gonna take up a lot of time! and i've to attend 2 jamuans today here at mtsa. one at 12o'clock and another at 3o'clock. rezeki! yabedabeduuuuu! tahu-tahu aja akhir bulan ni poket dah terbakar. huhu.

well, life's been pretty busy at home. since ramadhan al-mubarak is coming, we have a lot of orders taken. by hotels, family and friends and bla,bla,bla and opening up a booth at bazar ramadhan. so, agak busy. however, ibadat jangan dilupakan. terawih mesti kena pergi, if not buat kat rumah je kalau tak larat sangat nak menapak ke mesjid. mengaji harus dibanyakkan. makan harus dikurangkan. hahahahaha...

but the best part is buka puasa bersama nenda tercinta di kampungku di melaka on 30th august! yeay! can't wait to go and see nenda tercinta. it's been a while. heeee...and hopefully all my family members will be there. woot woot! yabedabeduuuu!!

okay,go back to work titot!

titot signing out,

lovees

Al-Fatihah

2009-08-14T12:55:00.000+08:00

Let's take a few minutes for us to recite Al-Fatihah to Allahyarham Ustaz Asri Ibrahim (who i adore so much for his talent and voice).

May Allah SWT have His blessings unto him always.

Amin.

The grass is not always greener on the other side

2009-08-13T16:44:00.000+08:00

Yeah, some would say that.

well, i don't know. the saying might be true.

hmm, maybe at this point of time, the way i see it is different. but one day...

smile, baby. smile.

anyhows, dearest's mummy got hit by a car :(((((( kesian...but alhamdullilah, his momsy is okay now and had already been discharged. dearest had already lodged a police report. however, it was not a hit n run thingy.

i pray for his momsy to get well. i love you yang. jangan susah hati. i love you.

whatevs

2009-08-11T10:32:00.000+08:00

semalam saya puasa ganti dengan tidak bersahur (bangun setakat nak niat je). so, satu hari was feeling low and migrain teruk gila. salahkan diri sendiri lah. muahahahaha.

at home, for buka, i drank milo panas and had some biskut kering, then went for prayer and sambung makan nasi pulak. man, i was damn hungry because i ate like a pig. huhu. tambah punya tambah tanpa kusedari. mama yang sedar. "macam orang tak mkn setahun.." katanya.

hahahah. tergelak daku..

and then, kusedari, kepalaku makin sakit. tak tahu kenapa malah diikuti dengan rasa ingin muntah. selalunya, i would throw up but last night i didn't even have the energy to walk myself to the bathroom to throw up. so, saya baring dengan ratanya di atas katil dan memasang lagu di handphone. boring lah pulak bisik hati kecik ku yang tak lah sekecik tu.

lalu, daku menelepon si dia. "haluuuuu?" jawab si dia dengan cerianya. daku merasakan semakin tak larat. ingatkan dengan berbual-bual di talian talipon dapat melegakan sedikit kepalaku yang sakit ini dan rasa ingin muntah tapi rasa lagi sakit pula...maka, saya pun menjelaskan kepada si dia bahawa saya sudah tidak larat lagi. maka, dia pun berkata "takpe, you go take some rest and i'll call you again at 10.30pm. love you"

maka, saya menamatkan perbualan kami. saya terus menuju ke lalaland.

pagi ini saya merasa sedikit baik berbanding semalam tapi headache masih ada dan begitu juga dengan loya-loya itu. adakah aku mengandung? oh tidak, buat pun tidak pernah. maka, aku tak mengandung. adakah aku mengalami brain tumor? atau kanser otak? oh......haa....tak pernah check lah. nanti pergi check up la.

will let you know of the result.

by the way, is it pening or headache, saya pun tak tahu.

whatevs.

signing out,
lovees.

Sorry saya tertidur :(((

2009-08-07T08:55:00.000+08:00

Dear si dia,

sorry i didn't pick up ur call last night. the reason is simple, i fell asleep like a baby. i didn't hear my phone ringing at all. i was already in lalaland. this is the first time that kita tak cakap on the phone before both of us go to sleep (minus the part you gi jakarta and minus the part i gi jakarta). sowwwwwyyyyyyy :((((((

ehehehe, anyways, what to update?

hmmmmm...

hmmmmm,

nothing lah.

lovees.

Terkhilaf

2009-08-06T08:55:00.000+08:00

Semasa saya menulis luahan hati di previous post, saya ingin menuntut maaf di atas kesilapan saya. Saya mengakui bahawa bahasa inggeris saya tidaklah sehebat mana.

Sepatutnya "Case has been struck out and not your case has been striked out".

Thank you to the pembaca budiman who highlighted me this silly mistake.

Wait

2009-08-05T11:37:00.000+08:00

i'm here now sitting in front of my PC in my office, blogging while waiting for another 2 cases to be heard before me.

i hate waiting. waiting can make me cry because i'll get annoyed, irritated, frustrated, angry and if i can kill somebody, to hell i will. i don't like to wait and i don't like for people to wait for me. gosh, why do we have to wait? why is it that waiting will always kill me from inside and makes my blood goes upstairs. if cases start at 9, please............please come at 9. don't come to me at 12 o'clock. it's not my fault if your case has been striked out. i have so many other things to do. gaawwwddd....

i just hate waiting. it'll make me look older if i have to wait everyday. just think of the wrinkles that will appear on my face. do you know that when a person frowns, it'll take 47 muscles but it only takes 18 muscles when you smile? interesting huh?

anyways, had some drama last night. refreshing, i must say. haha. i've must been out of my mind to say that. but, this kind of things will do wonders in whatever we have in ways that one just can't imagine. it makes us realize things that we tend to overlook and couldn't careless but at the end of the day, that is the most IMPORTANT thing.

i must say that through out of the events that has happened to me, i'm beginning to think like an adult. i mean, don't get me wrong. i used to cry whenever some bad things happen to me. but now, i always have the courage and strength to fight the tears and to think rationally. because tears will not solve my problems and it'll cause me sinus. haha.

well, i'm happy for the improvement. i mean, it is a POSITIVE improvement right? i hope so.

Sweet gile weh!

2009-07-29T11:07:00.000+08:00

ok, sila angkat tangan untuk menjawab soalan-soalan dibawah:

i) adakah si dia akan ajak anda keluar setiap kali dia mempunyai peluang untuk meluangkan masa bersama anda? haa, jawab, jawab!

ii) adakah si dia akan mengambil anda setiap kali anda keluar bersamanya walaupun anda ada lesen bertahun-tahun dan juga mempunyai sebijik kereta yang tidak kurang gahnya atau lebih gah lagi dari kereta si dia?

iii) adakah si dia akan membuka pintu kereta untuk anda masuk ke kereta (ataupun keluar dari kereta yang gah/kurang gah tersebut)?

iv) sejurus sahaja masuk ke kereta, adakah si dia akan memegang tangan anda dan memegang dagu anda (yang ada double chin tu lalu berkata "you sungguh cantik dan jelita hari ini"? dan, anda pun terus tgk cermin dan berkata"eh, yeke? mana ada..you ni saja tau. i buruklah". padahal dalam hati melonjak kegembiraan apabila kata-kata tersebut dikeluarkan dari mulut si dia.

vi) adakah si dia akan memastikan anda rasa terhibur dgn aktiviti-aktiviti yang dijalankan pada hari anda keluar bersama si dia?

vii) adakah si dia akan sentiasa memegang erat tangan anda dan tidak akan sesekali melepaskannya walaupun tapak tangan dah pun berpeluh-peluh kerana digenggam erat?

viii) adakah selepas outing tersebut, si dia akan menghantar anda pulang dengan selamat dan berkata "i've had great time with you today" dan diakhiri dengan "i sedih you nak balik dah...."

x) adakah dia akan tunggu dan tercongok di hadapan rumah untuk melihat bahawa anda telah selamat masuk ke dalam rumah padahal hari masih siang buta?

xi) adakah dia akan call anda untuk mengucapkan selamat malam dan berborak macam tak pernah jumpa setahun?

saya bersyukur saya berjumpa dengan orang yang macam si dia di atas.

New lovees

2009-07-23T09:07:00.000+08:00

i would like to welcome my new lovees on board. so damn happy i can almost scream here, right in my office. i can't wait to get my hands on both of them. it's definitely something i've been waiting all my life (over pulak). but it is so exciting and best part is, he's with me (being as excited as i am too). sayang dia.

you know what,

the other day, my parents and i were so cute (haha, perasan). we were watching TIGA ABDUL on the television when momsy suddenly said "mama, teringin lah nak makan burger and minum air gas".

and it was already 10p.m. i looked at her and said "tak elok lah ma. dah malam. nanti pagi esok sugar level naik". so basically i disapproved her idea and then she turned to my dad and said the same thing. so, dad being so generous, went to get ramli burgers and 100plus as what mom requested. and then, there we were in front of the t.v eating our burgers as supper and drinking 100plus. haha, so cute.

i'm so free that i can blog early in the morning. hmmmm.

anyways, today is the 1st of Syaaban. next month would be ramadhan. so fast how time flies right?

lovees.

Monday Blues

2009-07-20T12:25:00.000+08:00

If the previous post i did mention that i love fridays, now i hate to announce this but i hate mondays. i've never had any problems with mondays but i don't know. maybe because im hungry so that's why i'm a little cranky now. but enough said.

last weekend was fantastic. i had splendid time with my dearest. even managed to catch harry potter. thought of giving up at first since i have tried twice to get the tix but failed. luckily, he persuaded me to try our luck at tgv and voila! got it. nice seatings too.

but,

the movie was surprisingly disappointing. well, im no harry potter biggest fan (but i do follow the movies) but this particular one is quite a disappointment actually. hambar. yes, that's the word. with no climax and monotonous. slow and it caused my eyes to close for a couple of times. orang belakang siap dah berdengkur lagi.

and then, alhamdulilah we were also lucky since dearest managed to get a good bargain in trying to find a pair of sneakers since his previous sneakers was well, worn out. hehe.

momsy's been doing great. i can see that she is now a lot happier despite her inability of moving like she used to but whatever it is, i thank HIM for giving her the strength to always fight it. i sayang my momsy.

daddy's been practically busy with gardening. aha, new activity! good. and cooking too. my dad is a great cook. he can awesomely cook complicated stuff like masak lemak cili api till we all will lick our fingers. nyum nyum. i sayang my daddy too.

2 montels of mine, well being super cute as they are. see above.